Checking in at 154 days!
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Day 17 
Have a nice week everyone and stay blessed 
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137 days sober
This mornings counseling session weny well. She gave some good advice on how to cope better with how the sessions effect me. I found it helpful. I am starting to feel more comfortable talking to her about things.
I had a good walk afterwards and then had a productive work day. I like days when work makes me be so social. I went around today to do a sort of survey on if the translated words Iāve came up with are understandable or not. This involved many bowls of tea and lots of interesting conversations. And I need to go back to the thinking board for 2 translations. So all in all it was a productive day!
And Iāve felt good today. Some anxiety but nothing too overwhelming. 
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Thanks Jazzy. Iām just so tired.
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Hey Jazz, thanks for your input. Funny enough my friend visiting is called the same! 
Itās not so much about the drinking, she knows my struggles, and itās not about that. Itās more about the fact that I donāt want to hang out with people. Iāve become a total loner, and Iām fine with that! We havenāt seen each other for 4 years, and the most normal thing would be to want to see her and catch up! But somehow I stress just by the thought of it. Donāt know, guess Iām not making sense! Iāve cooked 4 different dishes and havenāt come any further! 
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Day 1:
No binge eating
No shopping
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Thanks for your response. I will remain sober. Any suggestions on what to do for the anxiety and feeling antsy?
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Thanks for your support
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I definitely will. Thanks for welcoming me.
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Checking in 174 days alcohol free. Weekend was well just exhausting. No matter the tasks done it just never seems enough for spouse not to be disappointed in my efforts. Feels like a losing battle. Anyway today is a new day. I have my list of TODOS. First AA Meeting this morning then on to my chores for the day. Looking forward to gym later and maybe a feeling of accomplishment.
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Checking in. Day one, again. I messed up last night but feeling positive and confident and definitely not drinking today.
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Stay mindful. Make a plan that can help you stay on track. Let us get you to day 2!
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Checking in with 134 days sober.
Sobriety is going well. Life is full of struggles and Iām just grateful that Iām not compounding them drunk or hungover.
Hope you all have a great day.
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Donāt give up!! You can do it!!
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Awesome!!! Iām proud of you!!
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Day 422. Back at work. Went OK. At work all week and then Iām on call this Sunday. All ok
Bit tired. The week off ended badly so Iām pleased to be home and focusing again
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For me it is always important to bring to mind that whatever uncomfortable situation I am expriencing, it will pass. Everything changes, everything is impermanent, even pain, anxiety, etc.
But what to do while I experience these emotions?
- Distraction: Whatever works for you. Listening to a podcast, watching tv, doing laundry, prayer, playing with a fidget toy, whatever helps you through.
- Physical activity: walking, exercise, running, yoga, jumping, anything that gets you moving.
- Connecting: Call or text a friend, share on here.
- Meetings: There are countless online meetings at all times available from all kinds of recovery programs (AA, Recovery Dharma, SMART Recovery, and more). You can just dial in and listen. You donāt have to show your face, you donāt have to participate in any active way. Being among people working on their recovery is good.
- Meditation/Breathwork: There are multiple apps offering guided meditations for all kinds of situations and emotional needs. I personally use the Insight Timer app. When I get an anxiety or panic attack in the middle of the night, those calming voices help a lot.
- Mindfulness: Learn mindfulness meditation. It will teach you how to just be and handle stressful and painful emotions and thoughts in any situation. This is a skill I can not recommend enough.
- General self care: a massage, bath, yoga nidra meditation, hair and body care. Itās always important to take care of oneself. Always.
See you tomorrow 
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@timetochange Glad you did not give into the feeling to drink. 422 days and gaining strength 
@tragicfarinelli Girl I feel you on being so tired. If you can ā just allow yourself to rest. Some days I just do my physical activities and sleep as I know I am not able to mentally / physically handle anything else. You are dealing with a lot of emotions and they can be super draining. Be gentle with yourself.
@jesile You are totally making sense. I was (kinda still am) that way. Wish you well with the visit. 4 different dishes? What did you cook?
For me ā I practice deep breathing practices, Long walks in nature and meditation. We have a meditation thread here that may be helpful to you
@tailee17 I am sorry LAM ā that is total horseshit as I know you are putting your full effort in. I am totally impressed with you and proud of your efforts! 
@dv713 Welcome back Dave and great work on day 1! Stay connected my friend ā it gets easier ā Great positive attitude you already got going :muscle
Checking in Monday afternoon
Feeling good today. Fatigue and pain still high but I did manage to get a lot of activity done which is good for my mental health.
Gonna curl up and read my book and hopeflly a nap LOL.
Wishing you all a wonderful addiction free day - sending you all so much love
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we got this
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Well, I redownloaded this app yesterday. I havenāt drank in three days. I just wanted to check in and say Iām here. Alcohol does nothing but make me feel disgusting. Physically and mentally. Life has a funny way of pulling you back into addiction too. Randomly yesterday a guy Iāve hooked up with under the influence hits me up. Itās something I know could easily pull me back into drinking. Iām starting to lean back into my faith and not only do I not want to drink, but do I really want to be used/use someone for that? I feel this is a test of choosing against both for once. I am such a deep lover. I honestly wish to be a wife. But a serious relationship just isnāt happening for me. As a full time, single autism mom, itās not easy to meet anyone. But I also believe itās because I havenāt become my best self for ME first. And then Iām mad at myself because why is it taking me so long? I just turned 28 and from someone who comes from a small town, I see everyone getting married and having babies. Most of them younger. It just always comes back to not being happy with myself. So why canāt I commit to bettering myself? Thatās all I want. Iām trying everyday to become the woman I am proud to be. Iām still going to school to become a master esthetician (although struggling to find confidence in it) I have been working on making my home a more comfortable and cute space to live in daily with the limited energy I have. Iāve ordered some clothes to try and feel better about myself. Now I just really need to get on top of working out and eating right. But it feels impossible to do all of it as someone with adhd and executive dysfunction . Iām seeing a doctor soon to hopefully get medicated. I also just think I donāt have enough energy because my body isnāt in a state of homeostasis. So I really need to get healthy.
Sorry for the long rant I donāt blame you if you didnāt read it all lol. Peace and blessings to everyone here. May we get through our hard days and find better ones.
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