Day 437 AF
My back feels a bit better. I am feeling restless and irritated with everything. My former property management company has yet to return my deposit. I’ve had to put in three change of addresses. Why is everything always such an issue. I’d like something to just go smoothly. Going to bed. Sleep well everyone.
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Typical Tuesday. Except just as busy at work as last week, which is unusual. I was actually given a busser, but all the tables came at once and I still needed extra help. A couple tables noticed I was the only server/bartender and said that wasn’t right. Glad the GM was there to see what she’s been doing to me. I don’t even know if the money is worth my body feeling like this anymore. Meh.
Tomorrow morning is my daughters middle school orientation. I haven’t stepped foot in that school since I was her age, and it was never even my school bc it was a different district back then(considering it’s all the way across town). She’s excited to get a locker and meet some teachers. Then it’s school supply shopping afterwards. I still need to look thru what we already have bc I probably won’t need to buy everything brand new. Just one week away now. I hope we easily adapt to the new schedule 
Anyway. My neck’s still pretty sore from the chiropractor and the air quality and ragweed has me feeling blah, so I think I’m calling it an early night. Have a good one 
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It’s going to be a hot one today. I’ll try and take it easy. Too bad I have to work but I’ll make do. Being sober and clean will help. One day at a time. Have as good a day as you can all. Clean and sober or nothing will come from it. Love.
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I’m here, I’m alive, I’m sober, and I’m happy.
Nice milestone to wake up to.
I sure needed it, this night was rough.
Had not really a fight but a heated discussion with Ma yesterday.
Earlier this spring the wind broke a window, the company who was supposed to come and change it wants to triple cost for what it would cost to change it privatly, because they claim insurance company clients works like that.
We pay a shitload of money for that insurance and I sure as heck won’t pay them out of my own pocket to change a window.
My brother in law who works part time at a window company says the same.
So we found a window only for not even half the price and his coming to our it in at the end of next month.
That coat should go on the house account, where they should be a little over a million after all those years. It’s not because my På got tricked in an online scam and lost all those money years ago. Since then I thought the rest was saved. But now when we tried to get $200 for the window, which is extremely cheap,a said that there’s not really enough money left on the house account.
I asked why, and she simply said because there ain’t.
I told her that she’s only supposed to use a part of it, which she knows but she got really upset.
I told her that it’s probably best to sell the house, cause I ain’t paying more for renovations out of my own pocket. Those money should’ve been there from the start. And that we’re paying a really high rent to make sure there is enough money for when things break. I also told her that my uncle had told her multiple times that the house doesn’t even cost half of what we’re paying.
Then my 14 y/o overheard me saying that she should sell the house and got sad because he doesn’t want to move away from all the memories.
When we talked about it he realized that he might need to move soin anyway because he doesn’t want to go by bus to the gymnasium in two years. Which would be in another village or a city.
After that he had nightmares and couldn’t sleep probably, and now we’re up extra early to take him to the dentist.
Honestly I can’t wait to move out. We already have a couple of friends who owns half the village and rent out apartments. They’re on the lookout for a bottom floor apartment with a small garden for us.
Problem will probably appear if we get the apartment before the house is sold. Because I ain’t paying double. But we can’t sell the house without no where to ge either. And if it doesn’t get sold Ma will probably become even more mad. I’m so tired of all this. I just want ti be free.
That’s all Folks 
Wishing y’all a wonderful day.
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Good morning. I’m on day 9 now and I can say it does get better. The tiredness does pass, sleep and energy returns. You can do this!
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Day 688
Still hanging on 
Odaat
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Great work on 6 months Sophia! That’s awesome work 
I’m sorry to hear about all that. Sounds frustrating and exhausting to deal with. Hope you are able to sort it out without further stress / tension
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270 days
Halfway through shift at work. Not as busy as yesterday during the day. Got some training in.
Got into the gym this afternoon as well. So far the start of the nightshift has been quiet, will look to get a bit of downtime. Will probably hide away and watch some training videos or something for a bit.
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@MrsOdh Congratulations on your milestone! Sounds like a lot is going on for you. Well done for staying sober through it.
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280 days no sugar
144 UPF
18 gluten
18 dairy
I decided to remove my counter for ‘overeating/compulsive eating’. Instead I am going to focus on setting the intention to stay present with eating, keeping heart and mind open, investigating this area on a daily basis until I have gained more clarity.
I did my morning run. My daughter seems to be having another migrain episode. They have been increasing over the years in frequency, length and strength. This does worry me. There will be a way with that like with everything else.
I want to work on the game today, yoga in the afternoon and I am going to co-host a Recovery Dharma meeting in the evening.
Whatever else the day may bring I will keep my heart and mind open for today 
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Saying hi. Still here. More time now, lost my job and decided to slow down and just freelance. Focus on me. I’m still healing from everything of the past 2 decades.
Want to do more online meetings. There was one I used to drop in on, an AA one that did meditation.
Need to get a sponsor again.
Dreamt about AA last night and I’m going thru this shift with losing my job so need to get back to meetings sooner rather than later.
Basically just saying hi. 
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@Tragicfarinelli congrats on 8 months good luck with the job application 
@Shel75 that sounds so frustrating! I still have situations I rehash from years ago and I hate how my mind does that. I hope today goes better
@tailee17 congrats on 6 months
@Butterflymoonwoman I hope the meeting goes well and puts your mind at ease
@Brittc welcome back
@Wakikki congrats on quadruple digits 
@SadMemeQueen ouch! Sending healing vibes 
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@MrsOdh congrats on 6 months
1478 days no alcohol.
943 days no cocaine.
458 days no vape.
2 days no binge-eating.
Yesterday I discovered a lot of small bugs at the entrace porch to the flat, although a lot appeared to be dead, there were a few on the walls and ceiling so I knew some were alive. It really freaked me out 
I contacted a pest control company but they didn’t get back to me, so I went to the shopping centre and bought some spray. The closest thing they had was ant and cockroach killer, so I also ordered a crawling insect spray from Amazon and that’s coming today. Thankfully there is a door between the porch and the rest of the flat so that should keep them from wandering further in.
Apart from checking-in here and reading a chapter of a book, I haven’t been doing the rest of my daily routine things, so today I plan to get back on track with that.
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Day 51, free from booze, weed and benzos. Today I’m feeling a lot better than yesterday. I’m still pretty depressed and sad, full of fear, but I can manage my feelings, I can live with them. I just took a walk and soon I’m gonna eat something and then go for another walk because it’s a beautiful sunny day. I love being sober, it’s the best feeling after all those years while being wasted and destroying so many things and relationships.
I attached that picture because it resonates on my feelings lately. I’m listening really beautiful songs by Max Richter. I hope ya’ll got a great sober day/evening/night!
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Day 287. Im up at work and waiting to wish addie a happy birthday, this weekend i believe the girls are goint to come down and we are goint to stay at heathers and have ourselves a great time. I feel pretty good, i am grateful for much, some days still feel off and thats ok. Thats how it goes, but i know compared to where i was it is very good. Much love and thank you @JazzyS
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Hey all, checking in on day 1536. I hope everybody has a good one 
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Thanks Jazz! I will definitely share a pic.
Checking in day 163.
I’ve almost finished rearranging my shed, tomorrow I have a bit of work to do to finish up but hopefully by Friday I can relax for the last few days of my parental leave. Back to work next week! Kind of looking forward to it. I’m putting myself first from here on.
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My Day 180 plan begins (and perhaps ends) with scrubbing grasshopper innards off of my black SUV. 2000 miles worth! It’s rather horrific-looking at the moment 
I can be seen nowhere like this 
It may take all day. Should I buy some Bug Ex? Do they make that? Haha, most people would pay someone but not me. Always hand wash the car. Then I can be seen in public…haha
Got some neighbor compliments on my front yard removal. Just grass on the edges, and new plants/rocks instead. It’s very sharp. And saves water. Water is scarce here. It will pay for itself soon.
New life is coming together. I have a feeling
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Huge congrats on 6 months!!
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Eyup folks, checking in,
Tomorrow, my roadtrip continues… 
I’ve noticed by far my best days are after I meditate and work out in the morning, so I’m beginning to appreciate and even look forward to the mental and physical value they bring to the rest of the day.
I’m pretty stoked how my guitar songs are coming along, and will share them here once I manage to properly record them (the wind is too noisy around here!)
Time to cook something up now before it gets too late.
Stay sober friends, every day is an opportunity to try, one small but intentional step at a time, to slowly push our comfort zones in order to find & develop our true selves! 
Have as good a day or night as you can whoever and wherever you are reading this… 
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Day 431. Nice day. Not working too hard. Getting ready for my course in Sept. Not working over the weekend. All good
Day 431:) every day is a chance to screw up or keep moving forward. I am going to keep moving forwards
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