@tailee17 hoping that your knee feels better today 
@mno funny how sometimes we get so little sleep and wake up refreshed. Other times I sleep like the dead and wake up a zombie. Not sure what our bodies / minds go through at night. Glad you didn’t have nightmares. Hope you have a wonderful day
@Dan.h84 congratulations on your sober time and that you are seeing the benefits. Keep up the great work 
@Just_Laura totally relate - think we were better put together drunk / high cause we were working over time trying to be “normal”. We didn’t want to feel like our DOC was a hindrance. The hell we put out bodies and minds through. Glad we are allowing ourselves to heal and recover now. I am glad you talked with a more capable and sympathetic person today. I do hope this issue gets resolved quickly . Congratulations on your 600 days 
Happy Tuesday!
Had to turn the heat on in the house this morning. Tad bit cool here in Chicagoland.
Day 2/30 of no caffeine. So far so good.
Make it an awesome day my friends!!
Hey all, checking in on day 1577. I hope everybody has a good one 
Good morning fellow travelers! Enjoying the sound of snoring pups as I begin the day sipping coffee and checking in. Daughter will be here at 6 to work out, which we’ve been doing 2-3x/week for about as long as I’ve been sober, 54 days. I’d rather stay snuggled in this chair but love feeling stronger. I want to stay mobile and active so I don’t have to use too much of the Medicare I became eligible for this year! Still feeling like my brain is scrambled. Good brain chemicals are in the toilet. Trying to be intentional about getting morning and evening red light, doing vagus nerve exercises. Time with grands helps. Looking forward to a 6yr old sleep over tonight and trip to the zoo tomorrow morning. Coolest day here since last spring so jumping the gun and making chili tonight. Low 80’s today 
Ridiculous but I’ll take it! Blessings on your day friends. If you search for beauty, you’ll find it 
Checking in in day 277 AF. Feeling good!
Day 328, all is going fairly well. Girls are coming here this weekend, we have some crafts ready and going to do some painting, maybe ill teach my girls how to ride my wheel, and going to make autumn some chicken wings. Had a bad relapse dream last night, definitely woke up this morning thinking i through it all away. The relief i feel when i realize i didnt is so amazing. Got some new pedals for my wheel and im looking forward to trying them out after work. Much love sober fam
Lil bit jealous about turning that heat on! First fire in the wood burning stove is a celebration here but likely still a month or 6 weeks away. So ready!
@Mischa84 , @Juli1 , @Conor80 … reading about your ice baths legit made me reach for a fluffy blankie. 
@Butterflymoonwoman It sounds like you’re going through the ringer but you’re showing so much growth in how you’re handling the situation. You’re doing amazingly.
@JennyH I’m so sorry about the bad news. Be gentle to yourself. 
Day 633.
Checking in. Sober. Today I had to take my pup to the vets for his jabs, worming and fleeing. The poor baby cried when the vet gave him the kennel cough vaccine and it broke my heart. His eyes are getting worse, so we have to change eye drops and hope for the best. But other than that, he’s in perfect heath, so that’s good news.
Eyup me chumps 
Hope you’re doing well whoever you are reading this right now, and wherever you are… 
Today theoretically had it’s ups and downs, so much happened, christ, but my cup is definitely half full overall, and I’m grateful for it! 
There’s a nice native american story… There are two wolves within us all, vying for power: one is darkness and despair, the other is light and hope. Which one wins, depends upon which one we feed…
Day 8 - feeling some progress being made on the mental health side of things. Although I have a lot on my plate, I am breaking things down one day at a time.
Congratulations on 16 days. So glad you came here to post. You can do it!
Thank you so much, my friend.
You are welcome.
On the 7:45am ferry to Nanaimo BC to catch up with an old friend from the same treatment center we both attended a few years back. Apparently she’s taking me to do a cold plunge in the ocean later. Never done one, so this should be interesting. Just made sure my life insurance plan was up to date and valid. If I get swept out to sea, I hope a beautiful mermaid saves my life.
Day 221
Checking in. Woke up very grumpy but all is well. I’ll start my day over….now!
Good attitude. I read here somewhere “all because this morning was shitty you don’t have to have an entire shitty day”
I think I paraphrased that but you get the meaning. !
Checking in day 3. Feel a little better than yesterday, but also have this overwhelming feeling that I don’t deserve to feel ok. My relapses, particularly the last one have been so bad, I don’t feel like I deserve it. I’ve caused so much destruction and upset people I deserve to feel very very bad. Which I still do to a large extent but not as bad as the previous two days. I know the only good thing I can do now is to stay sober & make sure nothing like this ever happens again & that is what I will do, I feel 100% sure of this, but even that isn’t going to make up for the damage that has been done. I’m going to try so hard to just be the best version of myself I can be. Even without the alcohol I was slipping down a very negative slope & just not being the person I want to be. Anyway, long ramble but that’s where I am today. Wishing everyone a peaceful day 
Day 5
No Alcohol and Drugs.
The day went well. I visited my bank to update some account details, and afterward, I had a very nice lunch at a restaurant. In the evening, I arrived in my hometown and accidentally met a friend. He mentioned that he didn’t have a car and asked if I could accompany him to a place. I agreed, and we went together. Later, he said he wanted to buy some beers for himself, but I told him that I had quit drinking and didn’t want any. Fortunately, he didn’t pressure me to drink.
Looking back, I realize that if I had made up an excuse or given a reason at that moment, none of this would have happened. Next time, I will firmly say no because I’ve realized that he only contacts me when he needs something, and otherwise, he doesn’t reach out.
When I got home, I became upset with my mom because I had asked her to prepare my favorite dinner, but she hadn’t made it. She didn’t make chapati, and when I asked her about it, she said she was very tired and would make it in the morning. I don’t know why I got so angry at that moment, but I didn’t say anything to her. I just left the dining room and sat in front of my computer to write it all down in TS.
187 days sober
Was a long day of travel but we made it in well. This is the first trip this way that I didn’t have car trouble so yay! Am hoping the way back is the same. We’re staying with a friend of mine which is nice. Am hoping for a good visit with her and get the privacy I feel like I need. I have a busy schedule tomorrow with meetings and the such. Hoping for good rest tonight.
Hope everyone is having a good sober day!