Oh that’s interesting to know. Unfortunately this bank isn’t here as it is my American card not my local card. But I can’t load my local card without the eaten card…bit confusing to explain?And the atm is refilled once a month and runs out of money around week 3 
is a bit on the shady side but in the past the next closest atm was 2 hours away.
It’ll get worked out. The bank suggested I give them a sheep and they loan me cash which made me laugh. I think they need a lesson from the UK banks.
@SadMemeQueen hey Megan, just checking in you, especially after the election. I know u were worried about what was going to happen so thought id pop on and see how u were doing?
I am a disaster honestly but I’m doing my best
I’m very grumpy today. I didn’t get a wink of sleep so has to sleep while my daughter was at school again. Thank goodness I’m not working atm. I’d be going to the shop now normally but nope
Day 662.
So… I’m writing this little check-in while flying home. Today was full of panic/anxiety/bewilderment and a flight. I really don’t like flying, but today made it even more challenging.
While at the airport, I walked to the bar with my husband and he got himself a pint. It was the same airport pub I used to grab my pre-flight wine from once upon a time. Beer doesn’t usually tempt me. But today it did. The telly was on loud, my mind was racing and fuck me gently with a chainsaw… that beer looked so incredibly appealing. I probably sat staring at it for 10 seconds. But it felt like 10 hours. It was like staring into a dark abyss I desperately wanted to enter.
So… I told my husband I’d go walk around the duty free to check out the perfumes. I wanted to buy a dior, but decided I should be a bit more sensible and settled for a Britney scent. Britney never disappointed me. Dancing alone in my bedroom to her casette as a kid made my nightmare upbringing just a wee bit more bearable. So I bought the perfume. Texted my shrink to ask about the max dosage of anxiety meds I can take to help me through today. Boarded the flight.
Oh! And yesterday I bought the most amazing shoes from a department store outlet. They’re pink trainers and probably the best, most comfortable footwear I’ve had in years. And jeans! For the first time in forever, I found comfy jeans that fit my big ass. Not jeggings, but bonafide jeans! That’s pretty close to a miracle for me.
The little things matter. In the words of Dolores, from the excellent HBO show, Westworld:
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And here I am. Sober. Flying (I’m literally flying right now, but I’m waiting to land before I can post).
Last time I used world events as an excuse to drink was probably Covid, and maybe the other thing that happened in 2022 and is still ongoing… Either way, fuck it. My sobriety comes first. My anxiety is mine to manage. And alcohol can kiss my big fat arse. Never again. No matter what. I’m not going back. Onwards, upwards, and sober.
I love you guys. Stay safe. Each and every one of you matter. Your sobriety matters. Whether you’re tempted to drink to ‘celebrate’ or ‘down your sorrows,’ don’t. It doesn’t solve anything. It will just make you feel like shit tomorrow. 
Late lunch check in.
Pushing through my resistance and need for a break I won’t have until my daughter goes to bed tonight while I’m solo parenting around 8:30-9PM.
Pushing, grinding, hustling.
What’s the end game? Big picture. Big purpose.
Pushing, grinding, hustling.
Day 13 check in.
Up at 6am gym before work 
Sober client lunch
Home sober to spend time with my family
A good day. Two weeks fast approaching and I’m starting to crave a drink. Time for a re-read of This Naked Mind which helped big time last time around.
45 AF and going steady. I’m doing a small tweak to my life by paying more attention to what I eat. I realized I’ve been comfort eating. Less treats, more nutritious balanced meals. 
Happy birthday, @Mno! Hope you have (had) a great day and all the best for the year ahead 
Sober and clean of course, or nothing will come from it 
Checking in on day 65. It was an interesting evening and uneasy day for me due to recent events, but I will stay away from alcohol. This would have been the perfect excuse back in the day to get wrecked, but it will not make me feel better. I know that! Have a great afternoon and evening everyone!
Checking in. Im still sick, but took some cold meds and forced myself to go to work. I really wanted to just stay home and avoid people today. I’m in shock, disappointed and have honestly lost faith in people to do the right thing. Enough said
May be a weird suggestion, but have you considered a bedpan? Going outside (especially in winter 
) would have me wide awake too!
Edit: should have read until the end of the thread before responding!
This is the first time I have smiled today, thanks for that!
Checking in day 508 AF
Everything is going well. I hope everyone else is well too.
Day 689 - the world is very bleak today, plenty of reason to dull the senses with drink, but I doubt very much that I will. Fortunately, the days where emotional upheaval would lead to alcohol abuse seem to be behind me 
Checkin in! 
First check-in in a while. I’ve been very busy at work, after having a big event last week. Now I’m back to normal, and I’m more than thankful for that.
The event last week also involved booze, staff party, players party, a lot of parties! 
Been struggling to keep my cool, emotions were running wild!
I’m so thankful for my normality, also when I watch the news, we get bombed with images of Valencia. Just terrible what happened there… 
It’s nice to be back!
Checking in day 310 AF 
Day 1117 AF
Sup, gang.
I forgot to check in yesterday. I got a little busy with work and did laundry at the laundromat.
Slow day at work this morning. Don’t have much planned today. I’m just chillin’ with the kiddos at home.
@Chevy55 Congrats on 10 months!
@Collins Congrats on your GED!
@Mno Happy Bday to ya, mate! Ty for being here.
@acromouse Feel better, friend.
@Amy30 Have a safe flight! I’m glad you were able to fight the urge.
That’s all from me. Keep killing it, fam. Proud of ya.
Take care. ODAAT
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Yesterday my close friend from Poland called me to tell me our good friend (well, his good friend. Me and him we weren’t so close anymore last year’s but we knew eachother since we were 10yo maybe) committed suicide. Heavy stuff.
And me? I’m alright. Nothing to talk about.
Be nice to eachother. Call your friend. Be nice to yourself.
Love ya
So sorry to hear of the loss. Suicide is awful for everyone. May you find comfort.
