Cate @C_8 your are absolutely nuts. Great number though. Hope you could go back to sleep.
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Checking in on day 144. My husband went out yesterday night. Came home around 3am. Of course drunk. He doesnât drink often. Today I donât feel Sorry at all⌠It was his choice. He said which made me chuckle that he can understand now why I donât drink anymore 
I didnât comment on that but no he doesnât understand but well its OK.
Happy Sunday you lovely bunch. @SoberWalker itâs super stormy here tooâŚ
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Checking in Day 47.
Just woke up, and last night I had a strange dream about alcohol. I was in a liquor store looking at the shelves and all the choices. I really wanted a drink, but in my mind I was struggling as I knew it was wrong. I was anxious and it was really painful. I paced, looking at all the bottles. After a lot of turmoil and struggle, I left the store without buying anything. Then I woke up.
Iâd had an argument with my brother last night, so that likely contributed to the desire to drink. But itâs nice that even in my dream I chose to stay sober!
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HAPPY SUNDAY
BEAUTIFUL HERE IN MA
im greatful to have good friends, family and not be hung over
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Sorry youâre feeling foul. I had to google Workaway. Sounds like a neat concept! Have you done it before?
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Checking in, lazy rainy dat but all good and well.
Have a good one yaâll
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Thanks Julia!! Got back to sleep eventually. 
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Congrats on ony year!!! Itâs amazing how differently we feel over time, and always a work in progress. Well done!
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Fantasticâ:+1:
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Day 54âŚchecking in friendsđ
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I have simple things to get me out of bed this weekend which is good. Lunch with my mom and kids yesterday and my grand nieceâs birthday party today.
Iâm in that phase of my sobriety where I donât necessarily care if Iâm sober or not and envision myself drinking in the near future. I hope therapy helps.
Weird ass dream about a client I adore being decapitated 
It bugged me out, so looked it up. Not sure if I believe in dream interpretation, but this part made sense:
It may also reflect the severing of relationships. Cutting yourself off bad habits permanently. A dramatic positive change in your life.
Iâm free and clear if my business partnership and officially on my own, AND on great terms with the person I was going to partner with.
Lots of other crap going on, but my posts are always painfully long. I guess TS is my journal 
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Oh @Mno I really hope you and your friend get things sorted out. I hate having un-reconciled business with people I care about. Makes me super anxious. But donât fear the process. Fear just makes it all worse. It is what it is. And if you want things to change, chances are youâre going to have to have a difficult or uncomfortable conversation. But once itâs all sorted youâll feel so much better! Sending you peace and love from Texas. 
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Sounds like an incredibly frustrating series of events! I think itâs great that you recognize that you maybe overreacted a bit. I know thatâs super hard to control with BPD but recognizing that you do it is an amazing step towards taming âthe beastâ. And so is deciding that alcohol definitely wonât help! I think exercise & meditation is the perfect way to go! I really hope those help regulate your mood and get you to feeling more even. Big congrats on not using alcohol to cope with this stressor!! Youâre doing great. Just keep taking it one day at a time!
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Hi @BobIsGone, glad youâre recognizing these outbursts and knowing alcohol wonât help. In the beginning stages of recovery I too would freak out and have emotion outbreaks (mostly in my car)âŚI reminded myself to breathe. My garmin watch actually has a function on it that tells me to breathe in and out for 30 seconds whenever I now feel myself spinning out of control. Find ways to cope and ways that work for you and stick to them. Youâre still in such early recovery dont get distraught over it or be too hard on yourself. Youâre sober and that, for now, is enough. Congrats on your days so far and I hope your day improves 
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Crying can be therapeutic! No shame there.
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Heading in to Day 78 later today
@C_8 caught another one for ya; the time worked out too at 11:11 lol
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YAY!!! ⌠at 11.11 is awesome 
Thank you and Congratulations! 
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Thatâs clever!
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