Good morning Paul 
How are you holding up today? I know when I jump back on the wagon and Iām fighting to regain a little health, itās really hard to stay motivated to stay sober. Your mind and body are fuzzy and the drink convinces us that it will make us feel better. Little bastard only causes despair. Iām over here routing for you and hope youāre having a strong day!!
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Morning all quick check it on day 106 ,life got abit on top of me but I pulled on thru got to a meeting and itās ok Iām getting there ,jft reading yesterday was us addicts are great at making a mountain out of a mole hill OH HELL YES ,so today I take things as they come and donāt make the little annoyances into something bigger than what they are .
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So glad to see you back here. 
Blessings and sobriety Beth!
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Thank you so much Joy
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Actually, wait for it, feeling pretty good today. Some hope has creeped back into my life. Not exactly sure if the reason is weird or not (potential new apartment), but Iām not going to question it as looking forward to my day is so much freaking better than looking towards it with despair.
Conversation with the ex-business partner was ridiculous. I get he thinks heās offering me this one of a kind great deal that heāll never offer to anyone else, but it was a hard no. I said I would stay on to consult as long as he needed, and he was good with that. Heās a full blown sales person and he is completely incapable of seeing my side or investment both financially and sweat equity. All good, we broke up on good terms. Again 
A little stressed about where me and the boys will live right now. Iām great at empowering them and keeping them motivated, so Iāll figure it out. You know, these are the Bill Gates, Steve Jobs, Larry Page and Sergey Brin, and Jeff Bezos garage days. We got this! 
I looked at another apartment in the middle of uptown yesterday because the original building I like is having mad price surges right now and who knows when they are going to have a unit open up with the view I want. Not to mention said view comes with an even higher rent. I filled out an application yesterday. He said it was fine but I need proof of income which I wonāt have for two weeks. Not sure Iāll get the exact unit I want now. If itās meant to be, it will be. I feel good about it and Iām really excited to start my life over somewhere new. They call where I currently live the divorce huts
Speaking of divorce, attorney emailed yesterday with a question as they were finalizing everything. I think my divorce slipped through the cracks. Whatever. I have mixed emotions. Not looking forward to being divorced. Weāll see how I feel when itās finalized.
Enough babbling for now. I have something currently to look forward to and that is keeping me going. Have a good sober day folks.
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And @joy thanks for the support, Iām at work atm so best place for me, Iāve just had a text to ask if Iām going to an AA meeting tonight but I donāt know what to do for the best. My drink didnāt bother me at the time but admitting to others is worse than the deed. I donāt have to look you lot in the eyes when I say it. Iāll probably break down. Just having people like you there who act like you care makes me feel emotional, Iām not used to people caring.
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Checking in. Day 104. I havenāt even been thinking about drinking much but I know it will come and go. Sometimes I get vivid cravings but I ride it out and they pass. I had a work trip that got cancelled for the virus. Looking forward to more time at home.
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Probably a relapse thing? Like, we want all the newbies/newcomers to not make the shit mistakes we made so suddenly weāre working our sobriety like weāre getting paid to do it lol. Proud of you!
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Day 8 - wide the eff awake at 4:30 am, fell asleep roughly around midnight? Thatās a three or four day streak of 3-5 hr sleeps. The odd thing is Iāve mostly felt well rested. It makes me think itās because I slept so much while depressed and binging that my mind and body are saying, āenough, already, itās time to live!ā Iāve got my plan for the day mostly figured out, lots to do, which is good for me. Happy sober Tuesday!
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- Maybe my latest daily check in so far, has to do with the late shifts Iām working. Feeling pretty good even though I am following the news anxiously. 14 days till my flight to Texas. If it happens. Not much I can do but wash my hands and refrain from shaking them with others right. Staying clean and sober too, that gets more and more natural for me each day. Have a good one all! Sober and clean. Love from Amsterdam.
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The shitty sleep eventually eases off. Your body is still adjusting and detoxing. Itās working just as hard to get healthy as you are!
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this lasted about 40 nights for me until I realised this was going to be my new norm, the sleep you do get is better sleep than you used to have, it will recharge your body and mind in a way it never used to, plus you donāt need to sleep off a load of drugs or alcohol.
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Hahahahaā¦lolā¦caught on to the trend that you like numbers!
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Day 35ā¦woke up very very tiredā¦Iām hoping itās because of part of detoxing now,and not anything major. .still watching my food intakeā¦going gluten freeā¦
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Iām ridiculously excited for you
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Made it to 180 days! Iām in a rush this morning but wanted to share with all of you. Itās been a long 6 months that have flown by. Couldnāt have done it without all my friends here. If youāve every responded to me or liked a post youāve played a part in my recovery. For that I am very thankful. Remember, what challenges you changes you. This has been a challenge and Iāve definitely changed. Hugs to all of you!
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Congrats lady! This is huge. I know itās been really hard at times and you push through every time. I really admire you and Iām so happy for you. Congrats
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You already know how much you mean to me and your journey has been beautiful to watch. Iām so proud of you. 
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Yay Cristel! Huge congrats lady. Major milestone. Yes weāve come a long way already. Big hugs!
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It is amazing, today makes 
weeks alcohol free 
Just like nature outside is budding and greening and springing to new life, so am I inside!
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