Should be finishing step 7 today which for me stands for forgiveness to myself. Which doesn’t come easy for me… I am growing in to the decision to forgive myself finally.
My sponsor had to cancel so that gives me a couple more days to make the decision.
My Higher Power seems to feel I am ready reading the just for today and also getting a call yesterday inviting me to a day of training with maybe some contract work in my profession of trainer in the near future.
Good things happening. But also today my stepmother having surgery for bowel cancer. Praying for her.
Having a throatache for at least 2 weeks on and off now and also been having headaches for 5 days in a row.
So mentally I seem to be calm and feeling steady. But physically I am not at my best.
Starting day 9, finally slept like a rock for at least 7 hours. Ahhhh. Busy day in the kitchen ahead, as well as some shopping for workout clothes. I’m sore from the gym yesterday and it feels good. My thoughts this morning turn to the inevitability of cravings, I can start to feel the strings being tugged. A few weeks ago I made it 10 days and relapsed, although at the time I wasn’t even really being serious about being sober but in retrospect it’s clear that it was a relapse. The pattern of behavior certainly fit. I’m trying to mentally prepare myself and have tools and strategies at the ready to deal with cravings so I’m not blindsided. By nature I’m a “planner” so I see it as rather than planning my drinking activities I have to apply those skills to staying sober. Still, though, today I choose not to drink. Have a good day, all.
Hahaa. I think he keeps at it because I’m a challenge to him. Mark. My. Words. He will NEVER get in my pants.
Not sure what I want to do yet. I’ve known him a very long time, his business is kind of imploding on its own because he’s a fucktard. The girl that was handling my case left because he’s such a fucktard. It’s almost done. Submitted to the court. I just wait for the hearing and the paperwork to get stamped. I don’t need to be at the hearing, thank God. Even though this divorce is a “good” thing. I still love my husband madly (I know I shouldn’t) and it’s very sad.
This is completely inappropriate behavior. You should report him to his state’s bar association. He has probably done this to many of his clients. He deserves to be disbarred.
Take your case to a new firm (maybe the one that your former lawyer is at now). This guy has issues and is probably not representing you appropriately.
Yeah, she was supposed to take me with her, but I guess he fought her on it. He’s an arrogant prick. It’s almost over. I block him now, so it’s fine. I do struggle with the thought of him doing this to other women. I ignore it, but if they are weak and fall for it, that would make me feel bad for not reporting. I don’t know what I’m doing yet.
If you want to go with another firm, there is absolutely nothing he can do to stop it. Just send him an email telling him to transfer your files to her. Done.
I’m going to concentrate on the positive, Soooo great sober days
The fact I post to you and end with paws and the texts you have just shown us, Do you ever feel like you attract idiots .
SMART meetings are getting really crowded Tuesday and Thursday nights. This is good since there is tons of good sharing and support. Started with me and the facilitator, now it has grown tremendously. I highly recommend Smart meetings if you are looking for a good meeting format.
@Hopeful777
Marie, we are only 9 days out from 2 whole months. I am so excited!!! Thinking we should do a western selfie theme to celebrate. What do you think?
I have to admit that I have a Jewel song stuck in my head. For some reason I cannot get “Standing Still” to stop playing over and over. I like the song, so I guess it is okay.
Few rough days behind me but I realized today is the longest I’ve ever been sober since I was a child. 196 days. I tried to get sober a few years back and was checking my old messages and realized I relapsed on day 195…mainly because I forgot I was an addict. I wasnt living in the solution and I thought I could take a narcotic because it was my birthday and I was in pain. That led to pot, then booze, then a year of meth addiction andnd other drugs that destroyed my life.
I can’t believe that I’m sober today but I do believe that this is the best life I can live. Even in hard days, THIS, is the life I was meant to live.
This is exactly me too. My sponsor calls it future-tripping. I waste so much energy in worry. When I could be asking my HP to remove that fear and turning my thoughts to how I could actually be of service.
Good morning recovery fam!
Feeling super tired today but other than that I’m okay. Feels like I’m coming down with something… probably bcuz I havent been taken good care of my health the past few days due to my relapse. Feeling optimistic tho about recovery. I am so happy to be clean and I realized this morning how much I truly missed having my recovery related routine every morning instead of fiending for another hit or line. I want recovery so badly. I’m so done with living that old way of life. Hope everyone succeeds with another day
Day 2 and some hours. I’ve been doing doubles at work since i started not drinking it helps and the money is great but im getting grouchy idk if that’s from no drinking or the lack of sleep. Kinda don’t want to be home though don’t want to be tempted
