Just one humble and grateful alcoholic helping another. 
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why does it only take one ignorant person to piss me off and then all of a sudden I’m in that, I must have a drink now, mindset. I’m a million miles away from coping without alcohol so if I get to the end of the day today it will be another mini miracle. I don’t think one bad conversation is justification to drink but that’s the mind of an alcoholic or addict for you. Deep breaths…
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Why let them piss you off mate?
Fuck em is what I say.
Ignore ignorant people.
Don’t let people have that power.
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Try to have empathy for them and shake it off, Paul. Even if it’s pity just know that THEY are the miserable sob’s, not you.
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just bc I can.
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My head is telling me that the saying “this too shall pass” is correct and worth remembering when things are difficult.
Yesterday I had ton of free-floating anxiety (I’m on day 27). There was literally nothing that triggered it. I just felt like screaming and crying for no reason - which I did let myself do a bit on my drive home. But then I went to an AA meeting, and felt a little better. And this morning I got myself up for an 8 am meeting, which was super inspiring, and now I feel great! Strong, energetic, grateful.
I know that this feeling too shall pass, and that I have more difficult days ahead of me. And then those will pass. Either way, I don’t need to pick up a drink
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When I first got sober people on here were likening the journey to a rollercoaster ride. Ups and downs and twists and turns!
It sure is that! But the ride does even out. You sound like you are well on the way.
Accepting that these things will happen is part of what makes it easier to keep working.
Accepting that, where we are is exactly where we are supposed to be.
Nice one!
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It’s the unfortunate nature of human chemistry
Replying in 2 comments because it seems I can only add one screenshot to each post:
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Yesterday was weird for me too! Maybe that Mercury in retrograde really was effin us up!
Hmmm…it seems Mercury went into retrograde 3 days into my sobriety! And I’m a Gemini.
Looks like today is the last day though 
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Should be a breeze after this then, lol
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Funny timing reading your post, I’m at the end of day 28 and today was one of the most anxiety-filled days I’ve had since day 1. No rational reason I should be anxious, I had a very nice and relaxing day off. But, I suppose that’s the whole point of anxiety…99% of it is in our head and not it’s not rational thinking.
Stay strong and congrats on another day in the books 
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Seems at the moment people are dropping like flies and starting their sobriety journeys again. I can’t reply to everyone bc from my own experience it opens cracks in my own sobriety and although I don’t want to pick up everyone else drinking or using drugs gives me a tiny bit of justification if I did. The point is I’ve had so many relapses that I now watch how my addict mind works and you all can to, you must learn from it, you must get to know yourself and what you are, look for the little signs in your mind and stay one step ahead of your ego. Yes things are obviously bad to you as individuals and you wanted to escape but remember this day bc none of you escaped anywhere you just ended up back here feeling worse… REMEMBER THIS DAY.
Love and respect to all of you. 
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Do you ever feel sorry for yourself for absolutely no reason, I’m grateful, I’m sober and TBH I’ve really got nothing to worry about but after nearly a month of flying high I think I’ve finally come down to reality. I’ve hit the ground but I’ve still hit the ground running, I’m strong I won’t drink or smoke so why am I feeling a bit sorry for myself, I’ve got everything I want and I don’t mean material stuff I mean mentally and emotionally yet something is missing and I’ve not got a fucking clue what it is. Love you all, respect.
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You are on a journey of self-discovery. You will find what you are looking for if you choose to continue down sobrieties path. Proud of you Paul. Wishing you much peace and serenity on your journey.
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today I’ve learnt that having a ppv boxing night is a huge trigger as I had a drink and smoke to chill in front of the TV for 5 hours. Slightly annoyed about my days but it is what it is. Day 1.
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Just a bit of input here mate. I’ve known you long enough to see a pattern.
Five days ago you posted this.
If we go back I’m sure we’ll see the same thing in past relapses.
Point to learn in, my book, is perhaps pick up the work a little when you find yourself thinking like this.
Be more aware of what this is saying to you.
Crack on then mate
The live boxing is just an excuse.
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yeah your not the first person to say that but it definitely had strong associations with my past drinking habits and I didn’t expect it bc I haven’t had any serious drinking thoughts for 30 days, so I understand what you mean by an excuse but on this occasion it was just the excuse this alcoholic wanted to hear. We live and learn I guess.
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Precisely mate.
The boxing was the excuse, it could have been anything.
Onwards and upwards bud.
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