Daily Gratitude, The Air Of Recovery #5

Yes, definitely the community too. We still have off-moments, but it makes us more resilient. So happy to have you here! :kissing_closed_eyes::palm_up_hand::kiss:

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@Jwfletcher4792 I’m sorry to hear about your loss. I hope you are able to find some comfort in this difficult time.

@JazzyS thank you for asking. I’m grateful that I have the ability to pull back from life to mourn.

@Naomi I’m glad to hear you had a good conversation with your mother. It must be difficult to see her slowly mentally slip away. You seem to have a good relationship with her, which I imagine makes this even more difficult.

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I’m grateful I’ve finished my shit show of a tax return… It’s kind of like throw a match on it and run.
Grateful for freezer Jollof sauce
Grateful for my cuddly babies
Grateful to go to bed early tonight
I’m grateful my partner makes me three coffees every morning
I’m grateful for my health
I’m grateful for feeling pain for it means I still care.
Grateful it’s a Champions League night, Chelsea at Real Madrid.
Grateful for water and quality of life.

Grateful for humour… I’ve been moaning and pondering the fact we have no biscuits in the house for half a day now, and my OH just offered me the cats kibble… :face_with_symbols_over_mouth:

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I’m grateful for getting myself out of the tizz I’ve been in. I had a good talk with myself and realised that I was making a mountain out of a molehill and that I needed to let it go. Some things just aren’t that important and it was good to realise that. It felt good to let go of that balloon.
Grateful to be here :sparkling_heart:

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I’m grateful for my sobriety.
I’m grateful for this site and especially the gratitude thread :blush:
Congratulations @Cjp on meeting your weight goal amd cashing in :money_mouth_face:
AFAF ODAAT
:heart::v:

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Morning gratitude.
I’m grateful I got some hours of sleep allthough interrupted and filled with uneasy dreams. It’s full moon and last friday still casts its shadow.
I’m grateful I’m sober, I always remember vividly how exhausting the hangover after a boozed full moon night was. I’m exhausted too today and grateful for only mild headache from reading too much during the night when I couldn’t sleep. I’m grateful for purring Missi on me, the old boy already miowed me awake, got his pets and is off waiting for breakfast (I suppose). The big red furball rearranged something in the living room according to the noise :grin: I’m grateful for funny, loving cats.

I’m grateful I’m considerate. A dear pal lost his mum recently, the funeral is tomorrow. I asked whether he wants me to come or if there already is enough sympathy and people to deal with. I’m grateful I asked openly, I will light a candle at home and say a prayer :pray:

I’m grateful for texting with my weight-loss-friend in the morning today. Made me smile :pray: We have started a little challenge to loose 5 kg in 3 months.

I’m grateful for the automated reminders for trash pick up. Using it I can plan filling the bins on time, helps decluttering, especially at my late mum’s house.

I’m grateful for fresh bedding, so nice to cuddle up in it.

I’m grateful for tea, central heating, energy coming back in tiny portions daily, my mind clearing up a bit more every day (fuck covid), I pray for a good day. I’m grateful this post went in a completely different direction as I had in mind when I started writing.
I’m grateful I have so much in my life I’m grateful for. Today I want to be humble and refrain from complaining or feeling burdened. I will do what I can do, that’s enough. ODAAT :pray:

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Desperation
Gratitude
The fear of god

When i was age 13 to 25 i was out of control. I was desprate but didnt know it. Id walk for 3 hours, get high or drunk, then walk 3 miles back sun rain or snow. My obbsession with pot and alcohol was so unhealthy it was like a mental illness.

At age 26 i wigged on my dad over the phone (did it when i was young also in person which was terrible) because i wanted 200$ to spend on “house hold goods” but he only wanted to give me 80$ so i hung up the phone after completely wigging out. After i hung up something nailed me and i appologised and havnt had a argumeny over money sence for 7 years now.

I started aa at 19 years old. It saved my life sence then and i will never firget my home group. Ive went drunk and stinky. They never turned me away (But it isnt really appreciated). At age 19 my alcohol weed and drug abuse slowed down.
Then i found talking sober at age about 27 or 28. I went to meeting and ts. I talked to people here also drunk @englishd told me step 0 was to put the drink down in the year maybe 2019 a year right after pot became leagal in Massachusetts usa in the year 2018. Let me tell you legal weed is hard to pass on.

All those seeds added up. TS became a norm. I did take a break from aa but i just got back from a online meeting. Man that stuff is cool.

Now im 260 days no alcohol, 191 days no vapes or ciggs and 30.58 days no form of pot

My fear of god is loosing to addiction. Like what if ivwake up in the morning and my wife kicks ne out of the house. She would never but just as a example. What would i do. I cant go back to my old town. My dad doesnt nessasaraly need to take me back. What if i had nowhere and no1. Where would i be

I have a child due in febuary 12th. February is like 6 or 7 days away. Imagine if i got high or drunk and got the call yes comming. His name is archer by the way.
What if I smoked a bowl and the house cought on fire. Even if i set the fire alarm off that would be bad.

But no

I have the whole world infrunt of me
I better not fk it up

One day at a time
Easy does it

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Oof, I think I went to bed too early, I couldn’t fall asleep and eventually only slept for 5 hrs. Feeling worse than yesterday, but still grateful that I did wake up ofcourse. Can’t wait for this day to be over, I’m sooo tired :expressionless:
It’s hard to think of gratitude as I’m feeling a bit shakey and anxious about having a long work day ahead, but here we go!
I am grateful for waking up without a hangover, it could’ve been so much worse if I’d still drink.
Grateful for having my son in my life, my favorite person in the universe.
Grateful I ordered a paint by numbers, which when finished I’ll frame and give to mom. I loved drawing and painting when I was younger, so hopefully this will get me back on track and off my phone in the evenings.
Grateful I ate leftovers yesterday instead of caving in on ordering pizza.
Grateful I’m sober, especially after seeing the Addiction documentary op HBO, what a hell addiction is…
I am grateful to be a part of this community :raised_hands:
I am grateful I can sleep in tomorrow!

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Good morning sober fam,

Im so very greatful for…

This forum and community. Its wonderful to share and be supported here daily. I just love this place.
My sobriety, close to 1.75 years free
Up early, but passed on workout, trying to be ok with it. I mean me time this morning is healthy too
Sober buddies
Coasta rica countdown
My family
Curiosity and the opportunity for adventure
Being a growing professional, taking the agency budget to the board of directors today, fingers crossed i come off knowledgable and dont get tongue tied
Modern conveniences
Trash service weekly…snow storm prevented last weeks pick up and boy do you realize the privledge and convenience we have
Clean water
Fresh food
Hot coffee
Its almost friday payday
Progress rather than perfection

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Today I am grateful for Bravo TV. It has kept my itchy addict brain so entertained this past sober month. ODAAT

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@bluekoolaid OOH I love weekly visits with the folks! So lovely to read :heart:
@erntedank sorry for your friends loss. Grateful that you were able to be open about attending the funeral. I do think sometimes too many people can be overwhelming at a time of grief. Sending love to you and your friend :heart: :hugs:
@noshame Thanks for sharing today Matt – grateful to have you here with us on the Gratitude thread. This place really does get me in a happy positive mood (even on days when I think its impossible). Want to give you a big virtual hug for how far you’ve come and the determination you have to keep pushing forward. Your baby boy is going to be so lucky to have a father who loves him enough to be making life long changes for the better :hugs: Easy does is perfectly put – ODAAT :pray:
@naomi I hope you did find some energy to get you motivated for today . Hoping today goes smoothly for you :pray: Looking forward to your finished paint by numbers work.

Thursday morning gratefulness :heavy_heart_exclamation:
Good morning to all you lovely sober souls. Grateful to be awake and alert this morning.
I am so grateful that i was able to get up in time and do a very quick visit with my mom this morning. Grateful that she called on the way to work to chat some more. Grateful that i was able to drop off stuff to her before she left for the day.
I am so grateful for a lovely greyish foggy day in the 40’s – wow - it feels like spring! I am grateful that i will try to go for a walk today if everything works out.
I am so grateful that i have my last treatment appointment tonight and then on Monday i will meet with the doctor and see if anything has changed. I do know that my inflammation has not decreased and i had a backslide moment last week.
I am so grateful that for great friends. Grateful that we can be there for each other remotely and simple morning messages make all the difference :hugs:
I am so grateful for laughter. Grateful that it is the foundation for positivity in my soul. Grateful that with positivity i can tackle and manage anything i am going through.
I am so grateful for starting each day with a to do list - giving me something to get accomplished for the day. Trying to get routine back into my life.
I am so grateful for positive affirmations. Grateful for how amazing the mind can be. Grateful that we are in control of our emotions. Grateful that sometimes we lose that control and that is ok. Just have to remember that This Too Shall Pass.
I am so grateful for family and friends. Grateful that my family has been my main in real life social network and i am so grateful that we get along.
I am so grateful for having enough. Really have been missing @anon74766472 posts - hope you are well.
I am so grateful for morning coffee (yeah it really is hitting all the right places this morning) - for the morning memes with my buddy. Grateful for the laughter!!! yeah - so many ways to tickle that funny bone :laughing:
I am so grateful for TS community and all the amazing posts that have helped me out through the rough moments.

Wishing you all so much peace and happiness - may your souls be filled with laughter today!
Sending you all so much love :heart: :heart:

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Thank you for reminding me to come here @JazzyS

I am grateful to wake up sober each morning now. I cannot imagine how I did it in the past. I have no f*** idea.
I am grateful I have people around me how have the ability to calm my thoughts and take away some panic.
I am grateful the days are getting longer.
I am grateful I have enough food in my fridge and was reminded to think about so many food choices I made in the past years. I am grateful it’s not some new years resolution.
I am grateful I went to my crawling course so far and that my colleagues are so patient to endure my complaints each Monday before I have to go. To find myself enjoying it each time. :grimacing:
I am grateful it’s the weekend soon.
I am grateful I don’t have to go anywhere using the trains in the near future.
I am grateful I have enough.

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I’m so grateful I saw your avatar and that you posted Franzi. Aww…… I’ve missed you :kissing_heart:
I don’t have time to post my gratitude now but I’m full of gratitude and smiles now :pray:t2::blush::hugs:
Thank you :heart:

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I am very grateful I did not get sucked into a dark place by my thoughts after waking up, but instead read and posted on TS. This place is such a safe heaven.
I got up and did movement practice and meditation. I am grateful for this structure in my life.
I am grateful my work is mentally taxing and intrusive thoughts don‘t get a say when I‘m coding or solving a problem.
As I felt so overwhelmend in my body and with my emotions I tried to flee into my work. This never turns out well, but gives the false hope of escape. In the past I would have tried anything and everything under the moon to not experience these emotions. With recovery I learned a different way. I turned to breathing, meditation, staying in the moment. I am very grateful for this new skill.
I am grateful for feeling better now, for a good walk, for the beauty of nature. I am grateful for yoga, my family.
I am grateful I got through this day with compassion towards myself.

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So grateful to see you!

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I’m grateful for my children, our home and Rocky! I’m grateful our cat suki is still with us though she’s getting old, bless her! I’m grateful for having patience with my ex husband and not losing my shit with him when he still tries to manipulate me! I’m grateful his narcisism doesn’t affect me and I just let things go! So grateful for not being the shell he turned me into. I’m grateful for mediating and being in the present. I’m forever grateful for another sober day and all you beautiful people! ODAAT :v:

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I’m grateful I’m feeling ok, a lot better than the last couple of days.
I’m grateful my partner had a good chat with his daughter, small steps.
I’m grateful my son’s job turned out OK today, I’m happy he’s happier now.
I’m grateful to cook for everyone tonight, it’s a busy house, people are in and out all day.
I’m grateful for a lovely sleep last night, hoping for another one tonight.
Night night :sparkling_heart:

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I am grateful for this thread. I want to be better about coming on here to post daily.
I am grateful for my home, despite my current rent problem.
I am grateful for the forest that is visible out my windows.
I am grateful that a job is waiting, though it hasn’t yet appeared.
I am grateful for my kiddos and tend to concentrate on them coming thru their adult circumstances.
I am grateful for this 27th day. I am grateful to hold myself against dismissing my earlier tidbits.
I am grateful for you.

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I’m grateful to God for guiding me and helping me abstain from my addictions. I’m grateful for all my family, friends, TS and the gratidudes. I’m grateful for the ability to let go. I always want to catch up on this lovely home thread before I post but it’s already been four days since I posted my own gratitude and I need to remind myself how important the process is of posting my own. I’m grateful I can go back and read a little at a time and do my best to catch up. I’m grateful to attend 12 step meetings pretty much everyday as well as attending Church and read daily recovery literature and devotionals. I’m grateful for the phone call I had tonight with my friend for the first time in a couple months, we send texts a few times a week. I’m grateful to hear she is coming up on a month clean and that despite our broken marriage engagement 20+ years ago she has become a wonderful long distant support over the last 4 years and that she values my support as well. I’m grateful I can admit it is hard to know how to support some of her struggles with her teenage children because I am not a parent and theres a bit of guilt, shame and a shading of jealousy and regret that they aren’t mine and her kids because we talked about having a family one day all those years ago. I’m grateful that I can and do accept that was not my higher powers chosen path for me however it still doesn’t necessarily make it easy. I’m grateful for prayer and meditation. I’m grateful for my job and that I have been working hard and have been attempting to challenge myself to keep learning more. I’m grateful for sports to play and enjoy watching even when my teams lose. I’m grateful that my body allows me to still do some of these things when I keep track of all the self care type of stuff. I’m grateful my Sister let me know our parents made it safely from Ontario to Florida for their annual holiday. I’m grateful the cat is calming down a little bit as he seemed cranky yet hyper the last couple days. I’m grateful today was payday and tomorrow is Friday so the work week is almost done. I’m grateful for the fresh pillow case I can grab since this ones covered in fur. I’m grateful for the sunshine today since its been a bit cold and dreary. I’m grateful for lots of food in the fridge and cupboards. I’m grateful for my ever growing music playlists. I’m grateful for humor and laughter. I’m grateful I reached out to my sponsor and to have gently reminded my sponsees that I am still here to help if they want it.

May our higher powers give us opportunities to have fun.

p.s. You are amazing. Ya you!!

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