Daily Gratitude, The Air Of Recovery #5

[Dazercat]

I’m grateful for another good nights sober sleep and hangover free morning.
I’m grateful to see the full moon this morning with Benson.
I’m grateful for my coffee making skills.

I’m grateful I asked my wife if she wanted to do something spontaneous. Go for a hike this morning. I’m kinda grateful she said yes I’m grateful, the thing is,……I was expecting her to say no. Wifey is not spontaneous!! And then I’d put on my “poor me” outfit, and try to find the balls to go alone. I’m grateful I realize I kinda did want it to end up that way. Me going alone. I’m grateful I can talk about this shit with my therapist on Monday and also grateful I’m working step 4. I’m grateful my sponsor says by working step 4 I can figure out why I am the way I am. I’m grateful between the 2 of them I can figure me out. I’m grateful it might take as long as it takes.

I’m grateful we had a wicked good time together on our hike. I’m grateful we both agreed, at my suggestion, we walk 45 minutes out or to mile marker 1 and turn around. I’m grateful a hike is a hike. I’m grateful I don’t have to do the whole hike if I don’t want to.

I’m grateful I made us some kick ass breakfast tacos at home, post hike.
I’m most grateful I stretched, post hike.

And I’m very grateful my blood work came back, and my cholesterol is high again, and I’m not freaking out. I’m grateful I’m going to listen to my doctor and make my own decision. I’m grateful I’m aware I’m easily influenced by other people, especially family, that mean well. I’m grateful I’m starting to know myself better and make the decisions I want to make. I’m grateful I’m going to get the facts from my doctor Wednesday. I’m grateful I want to live a happy sober life and if that means taking a statin then so be it. I’m grateful I realize how hard I worked to get my cholesterol down and it wasn’t all that much fun depriving myself of some things. I’m grateful I eat pretty healthy and if I want to eat a little blue cheese dressing on the side with my salad, or a frothy full fat milk cappuccino, or a small portion of The Horney Toads sensational fried chicken, and have to take a statin, then I will. I’m grateful I don’t have to decide today.

I’m grateful for afternoon gratitude with y’all. And I’m grateful I went to the AA speaker meeting last night it was good. Regardless of whether wifey was cooking me dinner or not. I’m grateful her Beefaroni turn out spectacular

RECOVERY IS MATURITY

In the beginning, we blame others.
With some growth, we blame ourselves,
With recovery, we blame no one.

It’s a process of letting go, self-compassion, and acceptance.

[Dazercat]

Congratulations on your 30 days AF Davina.

[PinkyP]

Grateful to get out on a nice walk this morning with my daughter, it was quite tough, lots of ups and downs but we both enjoyed it.
Grateful for a more settled home life this week, it makes all the difference to my mood. So much nicer.
Grateful for a busy week and more grateful to be getting into bed, very tired and sober

[Sara.eve]

I am grateful for my sobriety, for the love i have inside for myself, for the relationship I have with both my children, for the beautiful bond I still share with thier father even if we are seperated, and the relationship I have with his girlfriend. We are a big united familly with my boyfriend, and it makes my life so beautiful and easier. And grateful for my health, physcial and mental.

I really feel blessed

Good night xxx

[Naomi]

I am grateful for 11h of quality sleep, I needed that. I love getting up before sunrise (if well rested, of course), when the city is still asleep.
Grateful for another day without any appointments. I hope this long night has been sort of a reset, going to try to go to bed tonight around 9.30pm as I’m still not feeling my best.

I remember walking home after nights of drinking at 7 on a Sunday morning, but now walking my dog, sober So grateful for that change!

Grateful for you all here, seeing everybody’s working on their sobriety and being there for each other

@anon68572606 Thank you, right back at you. I’d love to see you more on this thread, but you do you! Either way I’m happy to see you on TS every day

[erntedank]

I need to come here for some gratitude, I woke up in a bad state after a crippling weird, emotionally devasting nightmare.
I’m grateful my subconscious spills its guts in my dreams. That’s the only plausible explanation I find for this ongoing nightmare bullshit. I’m grateful nothing of it is real allthough today was one of these days when I needed time to realize and sort myself that nothing of it happened in reality. I’m grateful Missi and Tiglat help me with their purring love.

I’m grateful I woke up in my cozy bed, in my comfy house, with my beloved cats. I’m grateful I cry away the horror and use my toolbox to digg me out of it instead of being paralyzed. I’m grateful for freedom. I’m free, not in jail, I’m free, not trapped in a weird place with the ex, I’m free to go whereever I want, not waiting for a bus that goes nowhere. I’m working on me and my genuine self, I’m not lost and anxious, ignored and dependent. I’m grateful my real life is peaceful, slow and I practice patience hard. I’m grateful I have compassion for myself as the longing to move forward and have a solid foundation of how I CAN move on in life is overwhelmingly strong. I’m grateful in 8 weeks the new expertise on the market value of the farm has too be delivered, then I will (again and hopefully finally) know if I pay him out or we sell it, depending on the value and my willingness to pay. I’m grateful I can calm myself (at least a bit) by telling me how far I’ve already come and what I CAN achieve in this 8 weeks on my personal journey. If I want. If I put the work in it. If I don’t hide in the rabbit hole of mimimi, anger and self-pity but stretch myself and dance out of the box.
I’m grateful I picked up knitting again at christmas. This is stretching. I’m grateful I sort out things and sow. That’s dancing. I’m grateful I revivided the smartwatch. That (hopefully) holds me accountable on out of the box things, primarily walk more to begin with.
I’m grateful if I’m not the fucking hero of my life nobody is.
Thank you for letting me sort my thoughts in gratitude here Feeling a lot better and focused now ODAAT

[Pandita]

Grateful to come here this morning. Just caught up with some of the past gratitudes and letting it resonate. I admire the beauty of honesty, vulnerability and dedication you’ve been sharing @Dazercat and @erntedank. Learning from your shares every time.

I am grateful I found a different way to deal, when confronted with feelings of helplessness and fear the other day. I needed to call the ambulance on my cousin, who wasn’t feeling well. I stayed home with her five-year old, terrified daughter, until she was released from the hospital. My cousin is fine now and I think her daughter is also doing alright, given the circumstances.
I am grateful I could help and provide the feeling of safety and calmth when both were in distress. I am grateful things turned out to be ok for them. But it sure shook up something in me, too. When I got home, I had nowhere to go with my own anxiety. The only person I really wanted to call for comfort, was my ex. But I cannot do that right now. Or maybe ever again. I went to bed instead and tried to sleep it off. As you can imagine, that was only a time out, not a solution. I could tell by the craving for some instant release the days that followed. I am grateful I realized the cravings were a result of the former events. I am grateful I realized I wanted a short cut out of difficult emotions. I am grateful I am also aware there are no short cuts. So I did the next best thing. I shared with people at work and some friends. I acknowledged that I was not in control of my cousins health or could undo the fear her daughter was going through. All I could do, was be there for them, with the little I had to give. I cannot fix what already happened. I cannot fix what others are feeling, no matter how much I want to. But I can hold a hand and I can level with where they are at. It’s a tough one to learn for me. Still at it :).
I am also grateful this has given me the opportunity to see that my own “call in emergency” for stress relief support network is not broad enough yet. I am going to do something about it in the next few weeks. Thank you for letting me share this. Grateful to be sober. Grateful to be here. Grateful for all of you

[Cjp]

Good morning sober fam,

@Pandita so sorry you had to go through that stressful situation and feel a sense of responsibilty for others feelings while you have alot of anxiety as well. I loved hearing you process those thoughts above. Wishing you peace and acceptance for those things outside your control my friend

Up early as i went to bed early. Feeling a little anxiety myself as got alot on the plate today. Gratitude helps me get in the present and feel some grace. So here it goes

Im so very greatful for…

My sobriety
Hubbys sobriety
My recovery journey
The 12 step promises
Learning/practicing acceptance and letting go
Boscoe cuddles
A heatwave of 40degrees F today, may get a family walk in
Im a planner and feel like we are semi prepared for our dream vacation
Countdown to coasta rica a little more than 3days til we take off
Glad my folks will watch Boscoe and love him for us
My gym memberships
My determination
My achievements
Sunshine
Family time
Adventure

[Spidey]

Today I’m grateful to have made it one whole month alcohol free! 31 days today!
I’m grateful for having made it through my birthday AF
I’m grateful for making it through a city break AF

[Meka]

I love this statement too. Thank you so much for sharing

[Chevy55]

I love this, I am writing it down.
Thanks for sharing

@Dazercat

In the beginning, we blame others.
With some growth, we blame ourselves,
With recovery, we blame no one

[Dazercat]

@Dazercat

In the beginning, we blame others.

@Lisa07

I even said this right here yesterday
Maybe I should go back and read my own quotes.

It’s amazing how @Chevy55 gave me the exactly the reenforcement I needed. Thanks Nick. You have no idea how this helped me. I’m grateful you’re here.

[Chiron]

I’m grateful that, while I’m not nearly as mobile and physically strong as I was a few years ago, I can still walk and go about my every day life as needed, even if I still have constant pain. I’m grateful that the time and effort I’ve put in to this situation has allowed me to slowly separate from the medical system. Maybe I’m just stubborn, but no I don’t want anymore surgeries and no I don’t want anymore medication, I want to figure out how to help myself without those kinds of things. I’m grateful that past me had a study focus on “movement as medicine”. I wanted to help other people, but I never thought I would be my own patient at such a young age.

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@Davina_Davis Congrats on your 30 days!
@Dazercat I’m happy to hear your wife went with you on that walk. All change, even good change, can take time to adjust to.
@erntedank You really have come so far. Hang in there. You can do this.
@Spidey Great work on your one month!

[Chevy55]

I’m happy to have helped when it was your words that spoke to me .
I guess this group really does raise us up by just listening, sharing, understanding and being there.

Have a wonderful day Eric

[Lisa07]

I read your quote here after responding on the other thread and thought “wow, what a coincidence!”… great minds think alike. And it was the topic at my ladies AA meeting last night. This alcoholic blamed everyone and everything for my drinking. It was never my fault! Glad that way of thinking is in the past. Perfect timing for that quote.

[Dazercat]

I’m grateful I posted on here last night.

Are you affected by a loved one who’s an addict?

A little bird told me it might be time for an update. Well, I fucking hate hate hate hate my addict!! But I think I’m getting better. It’s ok to hate my alcoholic. I love my wife. That’s why I’m still in this fight. Ya know I go to Al-Anon meetings 4-6 times a week. One of them is an AA meeting. I’ve got a sponser now. A therapist. A couple of Al-Anon friends. I don’t get out much with them. Maybe some day. I don’t know. Anyway…. We try to keep the focus on us. Not the alcoholic. And I try re…

I’m grateful it helped.
I’m grateful for all the support and raccoon hugs.
I’m grateful for my recoveries. I’m grateful for your recovery
I’m grateful god is up there tap dancing a mile a minute giving me exactly what I need if I let him.
I’m grateful I got a warm Mavy on my lap.
I’m grateful the wife is up and I can be civil.
I’m grateful I can still be angry.
I’m grateful I feel angry and I don’t think I feel resentful.
I’m grateful I have no idea what’s in store today. Except I have a meeting I get to go to. And the Bills won’t be loosing today
I’m grateful for my health.
I’m grateful I can walk.
I’m grateful I get to walk Benson in a few.
I’m grateful I can hear.
I’m grateful I can see.
I’m grateful I could see the almost full moon last night from this chair right here as it was shining in my kitchen window through the trees. I’m grateful I get to see sunrises in the morning. I’m grateful today’s sunrise was just right. It wasn’t spectacular or picture worthy. But I was still beautiful and I’m grateful I got to stop and look at it with Benson this morning.
I’m grateful I can ask my god or HP for help in guidance today. I’m grateful I see myself doing that more.
I’m grateful Scottsdale has a boat load of all kinds of in person recovery that I can choose from.

I’m grateful I heard at the AA speaker meeting Friday
Could
Would
Sought
It was a good topic and grateful I heard that message.
That God could and would if He were sought.
Big Book pg 60

Also grateful to read that it’s impossible for me to adhere to spiritual perfection. I just need to practice progress.
I’m grateful I see me doing the best I can.

[Cocojanie13]

Today I’m grateful that I’m able to cook a Sunday roast for my whole family. Grateful my daughter and her partner came round too. Grateful for cold water after burning my hand after just over 6 years sober must still learn to slow down, grateful that I recognise this. Grateful for my daughter walking Rocky. Grateful my senior cat, Suki, is sleeping today even though she woke me every 2 hours last night!!
Super grateful for another day sober and the blessings I have in my life.

[JazzyS]

@erntedank sorry about the devastating dream. So grateful for your strength and the work you have been putting in towards finding yourself and all the selfcare you are investing in. Want you to know that you are a BADASS! You sure as hell are FREE
@pandita Grateful your cousin is ok and that you were available to be there for her daughter. SO grateful that you realized that shortcuts do not exist and trauma can cause the addict mind to awaken. Grateful that you did seek support and are working on broadening your support circle. WE are all here for you too my friend. You are not alone.
@spidey WOOT WOOT 1 month + of sobriety is awesome enough but to also have completed your first sober birthday in that time frame is flipping amazing – keep this momentum going strong

So much love in my heart on this beautiful Sunday morning – a lot to be grateful for
I am so grateful that i did get some sound sleep even if it wasn’t a lot of hours to sleep.
I am so grateful that i was able to get up and get to the store for my brother’s smoothie ingredients before he woke up (was not able to make it yesterday)
I am so grateful that the store is close and i was able to drive super slow as the freezing rain had made the roads a bit slick. Grateful that i did not get all discombobulated when cut off by trucks and large vehicles (people really have no sense or care).
I am so grateful that i got to my parents place early enough spent some lovely time with my mom. Had a lovely conversation and yummy coffee!
I am so grateful for cold pizza for breakfast - went really well with hot coffee
I am so grateful that i was able to do a manicure yesterday. Didn’t have much energy for much else so it was nice to tend to my nails.
I am so grateful for a warm bed and a dry safe space to live.
I am so grateful for a full active day tomorrow. Grateful that i am mentally prepared for it and making sure to take my notepad so that i remember any prep and care instructions for before / after surgery care.
I am so grateful for my family and friends. Grateful for the unconditional support and love!
I am so grateful for my HP. Grateful for my practices of meditation and prayer. Grateful for my connections to my HP and to myself. Grateful for growing and learning to live a addiction free lifestyle. Grateful that i am happily learning to live on life’s terms (knowing that all days are not rainbows and sunshine but hell that would take away from us realizing how great the Good days really are).
I am so grateful for comedy and laughter. Grateful that this is my go to medication - really helps me out of my mental funk.
I am so grateful for this community! Grateful that we can have this safe place to gain support from - a place to vent and be heart - a place where we are not alone and are among others who understand our journey.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day! Sending you all so much love

[anon68572606]

Grateful for the surprise I woke up to this morning. It brightened my day so much.

[Dazercat]

@Lisa07

coincidence

Nah……
That’s just gods way of remaining anonymous.
That’s what Einstein said. Hard to argue with that guy.
Specially since he’s dead