Okay was doing pretty good today, and then as I’m about to leave work, the craving hit, and it’s hitting super hard right now. “Like just a couple would be okay?” FML… Rationalizing with myself like, hey well you don’t have to work till 12 pm tomorrow, and it is Friday… But you’ve made it 5 days WHY WOULD YOU RESTART?? ugh… The struggle is SUPER real right now… So real I can taste it.
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Please don’t do it. You’ll regret it afterwards. It won’t feel as great as you think it will during. Call someone if you can? But don’t do it. It’ll pass if you don’t give in.
We can have a million, it’ll never be enough and it won’t solve anything. Stay here and talk to us please 
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I’m gonna stay and talk and try and refocus. At the library with the kids right now. Hoping that by the time my daughter’s performance is over tonight, and kids are in bed, that the cravings will have passed. My BF is the only one with alcohol in the house and he’s only been buying enough for him soooo that’s a plus.
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Do you have a sponsor you can call?
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I really urge you to find a virtual AA meeting if you can’t go in person. It is so so so helpful to help keep you accountable and rethink the choices you want to make.
After about 2-3 relapses, I realized that I needed more support. I found some groups on here but they have hundreds available -
And I’m a mom too so getting time to myself is hard but you know what? If I have time to drink, then I have time to hop on an hour long zoom meeting.
We’re addicts. We’re alcoholics. We can’t do this on our own.
Please stay strong 
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Please do let us know how you’re doing. And also what @Swiftiegirl93 says.
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I do not have a sponsor, but I have sober friends.
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Think about the nasty hangover. Before you take that sucker drink
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I will look into that. Right now it’s getting a house full of kids fed before a performance at 6pm…
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You can call them maybe and stay on the phone. Also HALT helps. Figuring out the reason behind it, what triggered you. And it’s day 5. The first week is really hard. But it’ll get better if you push through
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The hangovers are the worst, still waking up drunk is even worse than that. Just need to get over this hump. Been really good so far with the cravings but wholly hell, today is something else.
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I’m totally forgetting what HALT means. I haven’t been to a meeting in 12 years.
These are excellent posts
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Joining the chorus to say don’t do it. It’s not worth it. You know it can’t only be one, no matter what your addict brain is trying to tell you.
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You did the right thing reaching out here. It’s a moment of weakness. We all have them. But you checked in here. Keep checking in. We will be here as long as you need it.
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Definitely hungry, making food right now, haven’t eaten all day. Thank you so much… almost feel like crying because damn it’s such a strong feeling lm having, and WTH something having that much control just sucks. Pushing through the moments… Might need to utilize some ofu medicine, see if that helps with the anxiety of it all…
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Thank you, I’m definitely glad I did check in, because honestly I really haven’t before, just caved and said “oh well, I’m still trying, right?” Not good enough.
Eating something is definitely what I would do. And drinking plenty of water. You can do this, you’re doing great
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Then let that be your distraction for now.
They have meetings going on 24/7. I’ve hopped on a meeting at 12am after I finally got my 9 month old to sleep. If you’re craving it, hop on a call!
You got this mama!!!
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Don’t let yourself cave. Remember how bad previous relapses felt. You don’t need that.
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