today was my first day at work since i quit smoking (i usually had a couple on the 30-min drive, a couple during my breaks, and a couple on my drive back) - and even with the trigger of my regular smoking environment, i made it through without a hiccup! so excited to be marking down day 4 without smoking
honestly i felt a little grumpy today and a little woozy and fatigued. i drank like 100oz of water but the side effects are a cake walk compared to the constant anxiety of active addiction.
That’s fantastic … a true test when we can do our normal activities and find new associations to the time we spent smoking. ODAAT! Woozy and grumpy and fatigued are all natural — smart to stay hydrated. Get some rest and keep kicking butt
day 5 down - felt waves of grief today with nowhere to turn but inward. no drinking, no smoking, no weed, no sex….all the things for years i used to cope with the grief and turmoil and confusion and fury. now, it’s just the raw feeling and my beautiful precious heart beating there with me thru it. nothing masking, nothing distracting nor distorting, just tears flowing and tides turning, as natural as can be. i’m becoming who i am. gone is the false image of me, a defensive projection made from imprints of a mean world. now, pure me. undiminished. inviting life. now, the smoke is clearing, so i can see her deeper than ever
thank you! i made it one week! i’m so relieved so i wanted to do a daily check in here for 7 days, now i will let another week go by before checking back in, unless i really need to. but so far, it’s been relatively easy to stay committed! i think i was just seriously FINISHED. curious effect - i’m suddenly much more interested in improving my health stretching, meditating, drinking tea, skincare, supplements……im just naturally gravitating toward this stuff, not even trying to add it in! very cool and fun to watch how my energy and focus is shifting in the dawn of this new smokeless reality thanks to this app and you guys here for being my home base during this transition i truly appreciate it. it’s what got me thru my early sobriety from alcohol and now im almost 11 months AF! woohoo