What you need is a plan to get sober. This normally is a pick and choose of lots of different things that have been tried by other alkies and have been found beneficial. The most comprehensive list of those resources on the Forum is this:
Pick a few things - AA meetings, therapy, mindfulness practices and exercise are the big ones. See what helps. Stick with it, couple of weeks minimum. Make a real effort. Mix n match until you find your golden ticket combo.
There is no reason you can’t do this.
Here is what longtimers would want you to know:
Advice for the Newcomer and Constant Relapser
Your #1 tip for sobriety (over 2 years sober)
Stay connected. Use this:
Checking in daily to maintain focus #50
Let’s get to work, girl. See you around! 
