Hello
Not sure I’m doing this right.
I’m 36, female and I thought I could be like most people and handle going out and only having a few drinks but I over drink and black out all the time and last night I drove home drunk. I’m pretty disappointed in myself. That’s all for now
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@Tara707 welcome to the community! Yeah, most of us here got to the point where we were letting a drug or action start to consume our lives.
You’ll fine plenty of support here. Most our goals are sobriety, but there are a few that use every weekend and tend to regret after the fact.
Good luck with your journey, no matter what your goals are.
Lots of people around to offer advice and tips.
Arms wide open “big hug”.
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Hi my name is alex,
I’ve been scared of people since as far back as I can remember but I always wanted to be apart of everyone one way or another. I’ve been battling addiction for a very long time . Been so confused on what is reality and just stuff in my head. Mainly about what people think of me…but I come to learn its only what I think of me. Unless someone actually gives me their input of me…its hard to go day to day with this mins conception burden… I’m coming up on my thirty days tomorrow . Working on finding a soon see now so I can start my steps. But I’m scared to ask another person to be my sponsor…but I’m willing to do whatever I have to so I don’t return back to isolation… I’m happy to have joined talking sober. It is a good way for me to begin to speak my mind not face to face and start to become, hopefully, not so self centered…thanks for reading this short story of mind. My whole story would take forever.
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Remember, the longer I don’t drink the more thirsty I get. So I need to use the book the steps and must get a sponser see to show us how to deal with life and loving life sober…you can do this
.best of luck and God speed
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Hello
This is Sam, I am a 30 year old guy who had everything going on for him. Work, life, gf, starting my own business. I lost everything becauze of drinking. Drinking and Driving is what ruined me. After my 3rd dui now I am on a house arrest, which led me not starting my business because i have to spend 20k in legal, fines, classes. I have decided to never drink again and I am 5 days sober today. After my ex and I broke up I went down hill… it was cociane and drinking every weekend to overcome this lonliness. Going to bars and picking up girls… i want to stop everything now. Drinking doesnt fix anything, you spend more and once you are sober you feel like hell and still have your problems to deal with.
I am looking forward to spending time doing more productive things. Pay off my debt and start my business if no one else has come up with the idea. I want to be sucessful. I like this fourm and the support it offers. I am here for anyone who wantz to talk, share stories.
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If I go out I normally only took enough cash to buy me 2-3 drinks… leave everything else in car or give it to your friends who you can trust. If you dont want to completely stop then this will stop you from blacking out and eventually move to virigin drinks… my really good friend all he drinks is ginger ale
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Hello, my name is Alisha and I can’t believe that I’m back in this same place AGAIN! Like the first time recovering from painkillers and pills in general wasn’t sufficiently difficult and painful enough that I thought, hey let’s try this addiction thing again. Smh. I’m very disappointed in myself and pretty astonished by how crafty and cunning my addiction truly is. I like to think of my addiction as an actual entity, who is a part of me and always will be but how much I let him participate is ever changing. When I am strong, confident, sober, positive, etc I am starving him and therfore he gets weaker and his voice and presence becomes meek, softer and actually easier to ignore and keep grounded. But when I engage in negative self-talk, use drugs, treat myself poorly, etc these things actually feed him and help him become stronger, louder and much more powerful, which is much more difficult to ignore. Right now he’s as strong as ever and I’m realizing that denial was his choice of weapon. He knew that I was finished with opiates and pills such as benzos, and he couldn’t gain control that way, so he looked for another point of entry. I would tell myself every time I did another drug well it’s okay bc I’m not doing pills so I’m okay and can control my usage. I can’t believe I could be so foolish.
I’m going to cut this short bc I’ve already written a novel and haven’t even braised the surface of the entanglement that is me. Buick extremely grateful for this app,. /forum and really hope with your help that this time sobriety sticks and I never have to go through this ever again bc addiction is a prison and I would never wish it upon anyone. My prayers and thoughts are with anyone suffering from this truly insidious disease first hand or affected by it in some way. Stay strong and stay up! Believe in yourself. You can beat this bc you are amazing and so incredibly brave. Stay with us, please. Xoxo (I’m also talking to myself) 
xoxo
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I’m Ju. That’s not my real name but that doesn’t matter. I’m 20 years old, and I have struggled with substance problems since 15. For the past 5 years I have tried about 20 different drugs, including but not limited to lsd, weed, opiates, benzodiazepines, 25i-nbome, doc, etc. etc. It starts out cool, you think you’re in control (“I won’t end up like in the movies or those freaks you see on the street”), then shit starts to snowball and before you know it you’ve got a bigger problem than you know how to deal with. Depression, anxiety, depersonalization, suicidal thoughts, borderline psychotic episodes, obsessions, racing thoughts, the list goes. I’m scared. I’ve struggled with mental issues since I was only a child, which leads me to believe all this monkey business is a form of self medicating. Whatever, I’m stoned, drunk and zombied on the benz. Sobriety starts tomorrow, wish me luck.
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Hi @Ju_Hao and welcome to the forum. 
Congrats on taking the first big step.
Here is a useful thread on getting through early recovery:
(Surviving Alcohol Withdrawal/Early Sobriety Techniques)
And recovery-related links that members have posted:
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Hi all
I’m sarah I’m a drink and drug addict I’m not long out of treatment I’m new to this so don’t what to say much more for now
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Hi, I’m Denise I’m 26 with two small children. I’m married, been so for going on two years. I had my first drink at age 13, didn’t drink again for about 4 years. I started dating an older guy and had access to alcohol whenever I wanted. I have drank almost every day since, I think when I first left that relationship I went for about 3 months without drinking but that’s the longest I’ve gone. My decision to quit 7 days ago came after a huge argument between myself and my husband’s sister. We were all pretty drunk so things escalated rather quickly. Things got ugly hurtful things were said and I realized that I was tired. At 26 I’ve been through so much unnecessary crap due to my drinking. I’m very new to this but I am ready, this is a great app I’m loving what I’m seeing and I appreciate the support that I’ve already been given.
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Hi again @Denise27 and welcome to the forum. Congrats on taking the first big step and 7 days.
The good news is that you are young and if you stop now, have a whole life ahead of you. 
Unlike some of us who wasted decades in a destructive cycle.
Here are recovery-related links that members have posted:
(Different Aspects of Recovery)
Note that this forum is also available outside the “App” from any browser at talkingsober.com
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Thank you I look forward to continuing this journey. This forum has been very helpful in letting me know that I’m not alone.
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Wow! Thank you. What an eye opener. I teared up reading this because it sounded so much like me.
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Mounir… 22
Porn addict for 11 years.
Not yet recovered…
But My goal is to finish 2017 without it!!!
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@Ju_Hao, Welcome I hope today was good and you have succeeded on your goal for today. If you need anything IM me. Remember your higher power and always be thankful for the blessings that have been bestowed on you and the things that you have accomplished. So your higher power grant you another day of Great accomplishments. Another thing you will find if you keep your hands busy and your mind will follow. The mind is the devil’s workshop so we have to keep her hands busy so the devil cannot play. Good luck and I will be praying for you. 
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Hi I’m Jamie 25 I was addicted to Xanax for about 3 or 4 years everyday… I just recently relapsed on cocaine and lost the love of my life but I can come back and will…
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Hi I’m Chris
When I seperated from my wife 11yrs, alcohol became my new relationship, but I didn’t know at the time, or didn’t want to know.
When I finally admitted that I did have a problem, things began to get worse.
After 3yrs of relapses, I know now it’s part of the road to recovery.
So I’m here, after relapse number…, I have no clue, determined to get sober, to accept myself, instead of pushing away the hurt and pain to meet it with kindness.
Anyways that’s me for now.
Thankyou all. Have a great day.
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Hi everyone. Im Will. I am 33. I am addicted to opiods. I have 3 beautiful children and a nice house. A great job and a decent truck. I am blessed. Yet through all that I still fight with depression and feelings of inadequacy and hopelessness. Im going thru a lengthy divorce. Luckily I have my kids…they are the reason Im alive and the reason Im here…trying to stay sober. I started dabbling with percocet over 10 yrs ago. Before that all I had done was drink. But looking back i have always had addictions…just not always unhealthy ones. Highschool football, weightlifting, bodybuilding…stuff like that. When I was that age I looked down on addicts…considered them weak and stupid…now…here I am…2 months behind on the mortgage…all because I said …heck…why not? Over 10 years ago. My use really increased to a very problematic stage about 6 yrs ago. I kept it at bay for a long time…my good paying job allowed me to keep up with my habit…15$-20$ a day was doable. Then as the law cracked down and demand went up so did the price. Now it was 40$ a day. Thats getting tight…As time progressed…so did my habit…eventually I began dabbling in heroin but it wasnt my preferred drug. Thank God I never shot up. Oxy is my kryptonite. Last years holidays were particularly rough on me. My exes problems and demands for money forced me to cash out my 401k to help her keep the lights on and to let her buy the kids Christmas. So I gave her her half and used a bunch of mine to feed my addiction. Then I developed a 100$ a day problem. In February I was at the end of my rope and I begged my parents for help. They already knew I had a problem but couldn’t prove it or know how to approach it. It was very difficult because ive always been responsible and self reliant. Luckily they were gracious and helped me out. I stayed clean a whopping 10 days before I started back a little at a time and before long was back to 100$. Now here I am…I took my last pill Sunday morning. Its Thursday now. I got a suboxen strip to help the withdrawal(I dont recommend…just really delaying the imminent withdrawal till the long holliday weekend. I took 4mg sun. 3 mon 2 tues and less than 1mg yesterday. Its long half life should keep me semi-normal till tomorrow. Then the hurting begins. I say bring it. Ive beat the physical pain before. The sickness I can handle. Its days 8-10 that I get stressed that always make me falter. I “need” just “1”. Then you know where that leads. This time Im doing it different. This time I have yall. You all understand. You have been here. Im also going to start na. I need physical contact and accountability. Thats about it. Any questions comments or snide remarks…Lol…will be appreciated. I cant beat this…but we can.
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