It’s generally ok. Sometimes it acts up. I get these weird random pains though. I think it’s psychological, but it might be nerve issues. So we’ll see. Ughhh. But yeah. It’s pretty ok. I’m just so busy. It’s really annoying. so yeah. Rn I’m just not working out cause of how busy I am.
Just exclamations of annoyance lol
Are you parents addicts too?
I have very toxic patents. I have cut them off. I get it. If you every want to chat, I’m here
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Sounds like it’s been very traumatizing for you.
Well busy is good (is it?!).
How’s school going at the moment?
No. Theyre not. But they both have mental illnesses.
So sorry sweetheart that’s a lot to manage
Yeah, sometimes. Sometimes it’s overwhelming. Schools ok. I’m behind, but I’m trying.
I’m working on accepting that I’m not lazy, that I just have mental illnesses. But yeah.
Feeling quite lonely.
I’ve been thinking about suicide and self harm. I’m not gonna do it. But it’s in my head a lot.
I’ve also been thinking about James a lot. He’s an old friend who killed himself 2 years ago. And his family has been amazing and I wish I could talk to them.
Could you not call round and have a cup of tea with them. If your were course
Close friends and they have met you then they might be happy to see you. I know that you said your not at risk of carrying out the thoughts you have been having bit maybe spending time with his parents would get them out of your head 
I can’t. We weren’t close. We were in the same school till like 4thgrade. That’s all. And I saw him in the hospital before he died. Plus it’s too awkward and I’d get emotional and I wouldn’t know why to say. But i wish i could say something.
Idk why it’s impacting me so much. Maybe just the thought that it could have been my mom mourning me. Idk. It’s just hard to deal with. Cause for the first like year, I blamed myself. And I was in the hospital so I couldn’t go to his funeral.
The serenity prayer is handy for toned like this. Accepting the things we cannot change. All of that was being your control so you should not dwell on it 
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Do you do any journalling? It’s not something I’ve ever been organised enough to do but I see some people here mention it.
What is it you blamed yourself for? And what is it you’d like to talk to his family about? You can always share it with us 
Dealing with death and feelings of not wanting to carry on are difficult. I don’t know the answers but I do know in life there are bad times and good times. Hope a good time finds you very soon 
That’s true. Thanks😊
I sometimes do, but yeah. I’m not too organized either lol.
I blamed myself for him dying. But it want my fault. I just always blame myself when people die. I just wanted to tell them how amazing they are for trying to help people like me. And how him dying made me not want to anymore when I saw how it impacted people.
Thank you. Things are pretty good rn, but I have a lot of bad sensory issues right now. And just overall I’m a bit down. But I’m pushing through.
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Don’t necessarily know if I’m sad or what the emotion would be right now, maybe confused. My wife and I are currently separated but living under the same roof. We agreed to table any disagreements and just be friends for the time being. We have a concert in town Friday and the whole things feels weird - can’t quite nail it down. Maybe it’s lack of a concrete answer as to what direction we are headed. Ramble over - thanks!
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I imagine being separated but still living together is very complex. Makes sense that you would have a lot of emotions. Especially if the future of the relationship is still undetermined. Maybe as time passes it’ll be less weird? Does it trigger you at all with your DOC to have this situation?
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