It’s really nice to see you listing things that you do like about yourself, I admire your strength. 
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Thank you!
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I’m pretty depressed rn. Idk why, but yeah. I mean, having my period, but… Yeah. Idk. I’m pretty sad and lonely and anxious and overwhelmed. I feel like I’m failing at school and everything. I know I’m not. I know I’m ok and it’s just my depression trying to trick me, but idk.
I just hate that my own brain vanmess me up this much.
This happens to the best of us, I have days where all I can do is take care of my basic needs, shower, dress and food. The best we can do sometimes is realise that these feelings won’t last forever.
Here’s a hug.
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Yeah? Sometimes it seems like others don’t experience it. You do? Sometimes I can’t even do that.
And it feels like people don’t get it. Including my parents. And I’m scared I’m going to fail and everyone will be disappointed. And I’m worried everyone will think I’m getting bad again. Which I guess I kind of am. It’s really annoying cause now I’m experiencing the more traditional depression symptoms like tiredness, lack of interest in hobbies, thinking about self harm/suicide. Idk. I’m frustrated.
Thank you.
Ok, how do you put in GIFs though?
You put a gif in to your post exactly the same way you put an image/photograph in, find the gif that you want on the web and download it then upload or add you would a regular image. Yes I’m incredibly down some days and barely move from laying on my bed, I’m not scruffy but some days I can’t even bring myself to shower. Plenty of us here understand it so your definitely not alone. I wouldn’t say that I have sh or suicidal thoughts now but had I not got clean of drugs by now then I definitely would no longer be here. When I’m feeling down I cope by realising and remembering how bad my life was before and that I didn’t feel great very often then so at least now I know that I can cope it’s just different as I’m no longer changing my state of mind. I know that our additions are different but you can still apply some of these things, and just reach out here when you need to, you have come a long way since you started this thread I’m proud of you and I know that others here are to.
Ohhh, duh! Thanks! I love gifs lol.
Wow. So other people feel that too. Good to know. It’s nice to know it’s not just me. Oh wow. Well I’m glad you are here!
Yeah, good strategy. I think about that a good amount too, tbh.
Aww, thank you! Honestly, I’m kind of proud too. And now I’m crying again lol😆
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You’re doing amazingly @Kakimime1 ! Don’t forget that. Give yourself some credit, and some love 
for how far you’ve come! (so far!)
I too feel scared I’m not good enough, or I’m going to fail - like all the time, but I know now, that the harsh critical inner voice in my head - who is attached to the past, to suffering and who likes to worry about the future - is the cause. When I recognise that voice and what is saying to me (what words & thoughts I’m thinking/saying to myself) I stop and breathe. I focus on the present moment, what is right in front of me? Can I change my words/thoughts to positive ones? Can I think of 3 things I’m really grateful for right now…? this helps ! give it a try and let me know if it helps you too.
Also, sunshine and drinking lots of water also helps A LOT with depression 
Change your mindset and you’ll change your life, dear. You have the strength, you can do it! 
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I’m not doing great. I just cried at my mom for like an hour. It’s bad. But I don’t want to admit to anyone that it’s bad again cause it means I failed. I didn’t control it.
I feel so tired and lonely. And I have no energy or motivation. And honestly the only thing stopping me from hurting myself is I don’t want to have to start over. Which isn’t a good reason, but its the only one I have rn.
I hate that my own brain is sabotaging me. And I hate being a girl. I hate periods. I hate that my meds aren’t working. I’m just so frustrated.
I know this is a really negative post, but it’s how I’m feeling right now. And I know it will pass, but it’s still hard to deal with.
So you didn’t completely control your emotions, that just means that your human and it’s no suprise that your emotions can run a little high as your becoming a young women. You havn’t failed, it’s not possible for you to fail because your still trying. Even if you do admit to your mum or somebody else that your struggling that doesn’t mean that you have failed it actually means the opposite as you have dug deep and mustered up the strength to reach out. We all need a little help every now and then, that isn’t a sign of weakness it’s a sign of courage.
So the only reason you havn’t self harmed is because you don’t want to have to reset your sobriety country, that’s a good enough reason. When we are left with barely any motivation if we don’t reset solely to avoid losing our sober days and having to reset our counters then that’s still a win, anyone on this forum will tell your that. Maybe this saying might put things in perspective for you and that don’t good life ---- another day won is better than another day one!!!
If we manage to rest our head in our pillow at night sober and sh free then that’s a success, it doesn’t matter that the only reason we didn’t pick up or sh was to avoid resetting, we still got through another day.
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Not a negative post at all love, just an honest one. It’s good to acknowledge and feel our feelings, they’re there so you kinda got to. Accept that you’re feeling this, because it is okay to. Don’t be hard on yourself for that. You’re human, you have emotion and sometimes it’s uncomfortable but rather than resist, just accept that in this moment, or today this is how you feel and youll treat yourself with some love and kindness to make it a little easier, to be able to get through and soon you’ll feel the joy of a happy or at least, less difficult day. This shall pass. Just be with it, allow yourself to feel whatever it is you’re feeling and rest and relax until it does pass
I like to write in a journal at times like these, where I’m frustrated or upset, gives me a bit of perspective and helps me to feel better
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Yeah, that’s true. It’s just annoying lol.
But idk. Trying is hard. I mean yeah, they’re always glad I’ve told them, but they also always overreact and idk.
It is? Huh, ok. I didn’t realize it was ok to not have like Noble motivations. Hah, I like that saying.
Yeah, you’re right. Thanks. I assumed if I didn’t have a reason, it wasn’t good lol. Haha, thanks for setting me right😆
Thank you😊. Yeah, true. I tend not to acknowledge them, then they all explode out at once lol. Yeah, I’m trying to accept it.
Thank you. I’m literally crying. I hope you’re right. I think you are. Someday it’ll be easier.
Thanks for your help😊
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I’m at work. I’m sad for no reason. The whole depression thing I guess. Idk. it’s hard. That’s where I’m at RN.
I was sad for a few hours this morning, it’s now one am here. I was ok with feeling sad though as I knew that it would pass.
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I randomly felt like crying in the grocery store this afternoon. Sometimes a wave of sadness just hits me for no reason at all. You’re not alone. Just experience it, acknowledge it and let it pass. It usually does or at least lessens as time passes.
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One am? Wow.
Good outlook! I’m glad to hear you’re feeling better!
Aww, whole mood!
Thanks. I know it does pass, but it’s annoying.
And I feel like my meds aren’t working. I’mma talk to my psychiatrist to see if he canup my dose before next meeting. We’ll see.
I had awful headaches yesterday. Oof. But at least I am going for my first gyn appointment this week. So hopefully that’ll help with my pms and period symptoms lol.
Remembering my past. I’m pretty depressed. Struggling with remembering past suicide attempts. It’s hard. I keep ending up thinking about it again and again and it’s really stressful and I don’t want to be back there again. It’s hard. Oof.
I’m really struggling. My psychiatrist upped my dosage like 2 days ago. Well see what happens after a few weeks. Yeah. Idk. Currently crying at midnight.