I don’t think it sounds insane. Sometimes it’s easier to put some space between us and the real world, makes the days go by a little easier. It’s not nothing, but it will change. Everything changes eventually.
How has your week been, is it good to be home?
You have no need to apologize. I know exactly how you are feeling. I am someone who self harmed for years. I am currently going through a break up and have thought about it many times however I have not, because you and me are worth so much more.
Really? I hope it changes. It’s been years now and I don’t see an end, which freaks me out a bit.
It’s good to be home. I found a meeting to go to tomorrow morning. So yeah. Still struggling with urges to hurt myself. So yeah.
Thank you.
Awww, that’s true. You’re awesome! And we’ve got this!
How was the meeting?
I didn’t end up going. My parents needed me to do some stupid chore. Idk. Oof.
Having trouble sleeping. Hating on myself. Anxious. All sorts of stuff. Idk.
Also I’ve been super depressed and anxious all the time and idk why. I’ve been hitting myself when I’m super stressed and overwhelmed and idk why. I tend to flap my arms around and like shake when I’m overwhelmed, so idk. Ah well. Feeling pretty bad rn lol😆
Ughh. My back’s been hurting lol.
I’m feeling lonely y’all. Also my eyes simultaneously feel dry and like they’re producing too many years lol.
Hi Kaki,
Some days are better than others, right?
Hope you feel better soon.
Thanks for checking in.
True. Thanks.
This week is the two year anniversary of James’ death. And it’s been hard. We were talking about death in my psych class. I started crying. It’s been 2 years and it’s still almost as hard. I’m struggling rn.
So my mom just kicked my dad out. My mom was telling my sister to go to bed at 9:30 and my sister basically said fuck you I’m going to bed at 10:00
My mom flipped and said she was going to call Verizon tomorrow and shut off my sister’s phone. Then she asked my dad to call them tomorrow.
My dad said he wouldn’t and he didn’t even think Verizon would let him just turn off someone’s phone or data or anything (plus, he has no affiliation with the account). My mom was mad and that’s when I walked in.
My dad was saying “so I’m the bad guy!??”
And my mom was trying to explain why she was mad at him. She didn’t really know why and couldn’t really figure it out. She’s just really stressed rn. So she ran upstairs crying and wanted to be alone and my dad gave her a minute and went up after her. She told him he’s sleeping on the couch and I didn’t hear what he said to respond, but the end was I took your concept and I’m using my execution.
Apparently his execution involved him leaving. Idk where he would go. But he was talking to me and explaining it. And he said that it’s 10:00 and my mom hasn’t asked how his day was. She’s talked all about hers but hasn’t asked about his. My dad says he’s been working on a big account for a while now and she doesn’t even know the name because she doesn’t pay attention.
He’s now gone back upstairs. My mom’s laughing, I think. I hope.
She was crying loudly.
She said he wasn’t being supportive
He’d had a fight with my sister in the morning. She’d refused to go to school and he said if she stayed home, she’d have to talk about her feelings, lol. But yeah.
Sorry there’s so much today. I’m on the verge of tears
Oh no what a lot to take in 
Sounds like everyone’s nerves are feeling a bit frayed. Hoping for some clarity and calm soon 
Yeah. It was hard. My parents are doing better now. Which is good. Over the holiday, they fought a bit, but not too much.
So I told my sister I wouldn’t drive her to school today. She missed her bus and I stuck to my word. She was super mad and tried to beat up the car as I pulled out of the driveway. I just came up to bed an hour ago to find my entire room trashed.
I personally organized, purchased, and took care of everything in my room. And she knocked it all into the floor. Half of it was breakable and could have hurt someone. I just can’t deal with this. I wish I had school tomorrow so I could not be in the samehouse as her. So yeah. Idk. Oof.
I had a napmare- like a nightmare during a nap- today. Oof. It was a weird spinoff of a show and it was terrifying and then I woke up at a scary part. So yeah. It was weird.
I am having so many weird dreams at the moment. It’s so annoying!
Glad the holidays went a little smoother with your parents but that is so awful having to deal with that with your sister. I hope she has apologised, at the very least!