Some. If I call them, they’ll tell me what he’s been up to. But that’s about it.
Yeah, I’m at college. It’s really hard cause of fatigue. It’s super hard to manage and I’m a bit behind. Not a ton, but it’s still stressful. Covid is making it super weird, but that’s actually not the hardest part lol.
So my joints constantly pop. Including my knees. I just sat on my legs. Like you know, where you kneel and your legs are on either side and you sit on the ground. It’s fairly comfy. Anyways, I think it messed up my knees, cause they hurt a bunch, but also they’re not popping, so… Maybe I should do this daily 
Kidding, but like, it’s weird to me that this is the one-time they don’t pop lol.
Why doesn’t my gynecologist bring up the implant, iud, patch, or anything other than pills? Like I’m saying hey, I’m in a lot of pain and have extreme mood swings, and each doctor just says let’s try a new pill. Why not say hey, not having a period might help, how about these options? Like how is this not something they bring up? Oof. Idk. I know I should bring it up, but it’s hard lol
Hey guys, I applied for a job as a dog trainer. The woman at the place I applied to emailed me back saying that if I was interested we could chat on the phone at some point. I said I am absolutely interested and that I love to chat at some point. What do you think she will ask me? She knows I don’t have experience as a trainer, but I have trained my own dog. Does anyone have any idea what she might ask me? Also, is there anything I should ask her?
It’s amazing that you’ve made it to college, look at all the worries and everything you’ve overcome 
Re the doctor, yes definitely ask for alternatives, it is hard but they will always go through the most common options first cos it’s what they have most experience in. Keep it simple, just ask for their opinion on the options you mentioned and see what they say.
Re dog training, that sounds great! Do some research and look up the transferable skills that dog trainers need (i.e. not just with your job) e.g. you’ve worked in customer service? That requires patience, communication, organisation etc. Once you’ve identified the skills, think of examples where you’ve used those skills. Think about any challenges you’ve overcome or successes you’ve had. Also things you’ve learned relevant to those skills. You don’t have to talk about all of them, but make some notes and have them ready for your call so you’ve got them there if you have the chance to use them. Obviously talk about how much you love dogs, your experience with your dog, any dog trainers you follow on social media/ YouTube…
Re questions, depending on how the call goes, you could ask about their background, how long they’ve been a dog trainer, how they got into it. Caveat: do your research and don’t ask questions that you could get the info from on the front page of the website! When you do your research, make some notes about any questions that pop up. The questions don’t have to be about the job, just show you are interested. You could also ask about what skills or knowledge are needed, this gives you an opportunity to use some of the examples you’ve prepared about the awesome stuff you’ve done, if it hasn’t already come up.
^^ This is based on my experience of recruitment, I have never worked as a dog trainer and don’t know if some or all of that is relevant! Be positive and enthusiastic, that’s the main thing. If it’s not the right thing for you right now, that’s ok, the right thing will come along! 
Thank you!!
Yeah, I’ll try that. It’s stressful, but I think it could be helpful.
I am definitely doing that. On my resume, I emphasized my patience and how I take every experience to learn more. Great idea! I’ll definitely think of times I’ve used the skills. Definitely! I’ll make a list of all the trainers I follow and what I like that they discuss.
Good point! I’ll check out her resume on the website and not down any questions it brings up. I’ll also ask about her training style. Interesting. I like the idea of asking what kinds of skills and attitudes are important.
I definitely think those are relevant. Thank you! Those are really helpful! Yeah. I’ll try to keep in mind that I should work hard, but if I don’t get it, it will be okay.
Currently working on forming better habits. That’s not the word I’m thinking of. It’s like what you do daily. Idk.
Anyways, I need to remember to eat breakfast. And to eat more often. We think my fatigue may be related to low blood sugar. So I have to work on having protein and fiber early in the day. And eating every few hours. It’s just really hard, as I’m so busy, and only have food that needs to be prepared.
So I’m working on that rn. I’m behind in school, but rn I’m just trying to gain my health.
Heads up: I will be talking about breasts. Kind of. Not explicitly. But yeah, just a heads up.
Hey y’all. I don’t think I’ve ever told anyone this and idk. It’s hard to talk about. And it’s weird and idk. But anyways yeah. Here goes. I hate having boobs. So much. They’re uncomfortable and my whole life they’ve never seemed right or made sense. I cry sometimes about them. It’s really frustrating. They are a hassle and there’s no point in them being there. They make it hard to do things. And they literally provide no benefits.
I think one reason it’s hard to talk about is I’m scared people will chalk it up to a fat girl hating her body. But that’s not it. My body is fine. I like my body. I’ve just always hated my boobs. And idk, it’s just stressful.
Sorry if that was weird. Idk if any of it made sense. I just word vomited while crying, so we’ll see.
I’ve had two killer headaches in one week and I am not happy. I am currently in a lot of pain and it is not pleasant. Last time, I called my doctor and did an online urgent appointment and they recommended two different things that I could try. Unfortunately, this time I am super nauseous so I can’t take pills without starting to get worse, so I can’t do either. No I’m probably going to go to sleep.
So that’s an update on where I am. If I can’t sleep or I wake up, I’ll probably try the medication again and if I can’t do that, I’ll call my doctor.
Update: slept for like 4 hrs and woke up feeling extremely nauseous. Then I moved and the headache started. I found that sitting in an armchair is more comfortable than laying down. Taking some tums in case that helps. Hoping I fall asleep in this chair tbh.
Feeling so much better. And it only took 4 days lol.
Had flashback. I think it was triggered by my nightmares. I was scared of getting a nightmare (I’ve gotten more than normal recently) and I started thinking about why I was getting nightmares and realized trauma, then started flashing and I could feel it all again. Not pleasant. The only thing that helped was putting my face in the sink. And even so I can still feel it, but the emotions part is better.
Nutritionist said to eat more carbohydrates in the morning. It’s hard. Nauseous in the morning. Also usually after eating. And when anxious.
My doctor’s always said to eat less, but now they’re saying to eat more. I wish there was like a drink to get all your daily nutrients, and then if you wanted something else, it would just be extra.
Recently found out I lost 20 lbs in 2 months. My mom keeps saying how I look “healthy” and “so nice” and “like you’re doing so well”. But she doesn’t realize this isn’t healthy. Not the amount of weight, but how I lost it. It wasn’t intentional and was just because I’m too busy to eat. And I’m a picky eater, so I have to make most things myself.
And it’s really frustrating to have her saying these things. Like please just stop complimenting me for not eating regularly. I know she doesn’t mean it like that, but it’s hard to explain to her why it matters.
She’s been overweight before, but didn’t really acknowledge it and just tried to lose the weight again (admittedly, she’s lost most of it). But for me, I don’t care about my weight. I care about how I feel. That’s something struggling with fatigue and mental illness has taught me. You can’t focus on things that are surface level. You have to think about the deeper, fictional things in your life.
Cause to me, my weight isn’t a problem. It’s a symptom. If I can figure out my fatigue and mental health, I can live fully. And thats what matters to me. Living my life.
Sorry for the rant. It’s just frustrating having my mom say this kind of thing.
Feeling stressed. There was a sexual assault one block from my dorm. This scares me cause 1- It’s scary 2- the guy is still out there 3- I’ve had bad experiences before and this is kind of triggering 4-its worsening my anxiety 5- makes me scared I’m gonna get a nightmare tonight, which is always scary
That does sound unnerving! Do they have any support on campus for concerns like that? Hope you can find some peace and rest in the coming days
20lbs in 2 months is a lot!
It is good that you are more concerned with your health rather than weight. It is frustrating when other people aren’t on the same wavelength as us on things like that.
Does losing weight help with the fatigue? I imagine it depends, at least in part, on what a ‘healthy’ weight is for you!
Not really. They have counseling, but it’s short term, and I just figure what’s the point? What not just talk to my therapist? But idk
For me, it hasn’t helped. But again, that may be because of the unhealthy way it was lost. Cause if I’m not consuming enough calories, no matter how much weight I lose, I’ll still feel crappy lol.
My other fear was just that seeing myself lose that much will trigger me to try to lose more and make me lose control again. It hasn’t, thankfully, but I’m still nervous.
The hard bit is that I fight not to lose control, but I also do need to get healthier and losing weight would be helpful. But I can’t talk about it with my doctor or nutritionist. Like I just can’t. It’s embarrassing and awkward and I just can’t make myself say it. To the point that I’ll cry but won’t be able to talk. It’s really frustrating. More on that in the next post cause it’s been bugging me.
I have so much trouble talking. Idk why. I think it’s cause I don’t like crying in front of people. It’s just awkward and embarrassing and weak and gross. And when I talk about hard things, I cry.
Like I can’t talk about how bad my mental health is. I can’t talk about my bad habits. I can’t talk about most things.
Rn I wish I could talk about: overall anxiety, emotional support animal, struggles with food, past sexual assault, triggers, depression, losing time, nightmares that make me scared to fall asleep, twitchy urges, fatigue. There’s more, but yeah. Idk.
I hate crying or emotions. It honestly just feels like a waste of time. I’m so anxious about everything that it feels like I don’t have time or energy to pay attention to emotions or what’s going on inside. Idk, but yeah. I’m struggling rn.
Ok, I’m not qualified to give medical advice here, but do you need to talk about it with your doctor or nutritionist? I mean, we all know how to be healthy… Eat less refined carbs/sugar, more wholegrains, pulses, vegetables, less red/ processed meat, and move more.
What do you feel you need to talk to your Dr about?
Sometimes I get so hung up on what I’m going to say to people or what people might think about something I’m doing, I can forget that I have a lot of the information and capabilities within me to make these changes. It’s ok to just trust yourself sometimes.
Of course, if you have a specific medical condition that needs specific dietary controls, that’s different.
I can really relate to struggling to talk about some topics without crying. It is shit. And embarrassing. I try and manage it by preparing for sessions, writing down what I want to get across and if I can’t manage to say it all, I show them what I’ve written. Sometimes if I have enough time to contemplate something, it helps to take away some of the emotion. Sometimes not! But you know, therapists are used to it. Easier said than done but sometimes you’ve just got to accept the fact that you’re going to embarrass yourself. It happens to everyone and we do all get over it.
There’s a lot on your list there. Do you think it might help to try and focus on one at a time, to try and bring up with someone?