ah yes - what a beautiful reason to want to live longer.
I do hope that this feeling passes soon and you are able to enjoy your 43rd year of life. Just remember that we are here for you if you find yourself digging deep about mortality.
Maybe try checking in daily for a while until you start feeling comfortable. Our sobriety journey is not only about being sober but also about learning to live life on life’s terms.
Thanks, Brian.
I’m sorry you had to go through that, but it’s definitely helpful to hear at this point. All the best
Thanks again, this is all helpful right now and I’m sure it will be going forward
You are glowing and I’m so proud of you for staying sober in the midst of all you were dealing with! Way to kick ass!
Congrats on your time and conviction to stick with it! I’ve had worries like this for years. Alcoholism is really the only major disease that runs in my family. My fathers father died of a heart attack at age 30 trying to sober up (so I’ve learned now that I’m an adult). I drank well past that but then it progressed and I realized if I didn’t quit I’d probably be dead by 40. I also have a daughter to raise who I couldn’t imagine leaving motherless. I turned 37 yesterday, with 222 days, and I’m not looking back this time. We are definitely getting older, and the clock never stops turning, so enjoy each day as it comes. They’re so much better sober 
(Happy Birthday 
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I had a sad day, yesterday. Being homesick and doubting some of my life decissions… Being unsure that I’m where I should be. Then I had bad dreams about my partner. I felt lots of angriness and frustration towards him in the dream.
What can I do? It’s just feelings. An episode in my life. Hopefully it will past quick.
Happy birthday!!!
Thanks for the kind words Laura, I hope you had a great birthday the other day
Great to see you friend. Have a wonderful day!
Looking amazing as always Jana
I do hope these feelings pass soon… remember we are here if you need to talk about them.
Thank you, @JazzyS 
Appreciate your words and time to write them.
I feel already much better now 
Thank you for your good wishes @Soberbilly
I am reading a book about emotions and about how we ignore some of them and never even realise that we have/had them.
Since I’m reading this wise book, I’m paying more attention to how I actually feel and I’m trying not to fight it, or change it, but to allow myself to feel the feelings and as you say - let them pass through. It’s relieving to know that everything passes eventually and that it’s not the end of the world if I don’t feel 100% happy and enthusiastic for all the time…
day 18 alcohol free, day 1 nicotine-free . . . head hurts, wanna cry, but it’s okay, i’ll get thru it. 
That’s great. Best of luck on the continuation of your journey.
I’ve still got SHADOW on my Spotify playlist 
@Dolse71 damn that’s wild, preciate you. hope to have new music soon. that’s definitely one of many reasons why i need to be sober. didnt have much energy to create anything anymore. things are changing now and i’m ready to do things again that once made me feel excited and purposeful. 
After 30 plus years I’ve had to sell my guitars and music equipment due to a medical problem with my hand, so yeah never give up on your god given talent. It’s so therapeutic as well. I really miss it. Anyway well done on your recent sober days and all the best for the future.
Congrats. You look amazing. I miss vapes so much, I’m about a month off Nicotine now, but it was tough. Not as tough as the old wine demon though, nowhere near.
I love your office! Swap?
