You are missed


#854

Congratulations on the safe and sober delivery of your son. :pray:


#855

Thank you. I know I should be focusing now on the times before she was sick, but at the moment I find it hard not to think of her final days. I saw her on Mother’s Day, when she’d already started refusing food. She was so sad. Her body was paralyzed by then, she couldn’t even move her arms. When I left, I heard her call my name, but I didn’t go back, and now wish I had. It was no small feat for her to remember my name and fight through all the plaque and tangles to call it out. It was meal time, and I thought they’d have better luck feeding her without my distraction. I tried to feed her, but she didn’t want it. I’m haunted that I didn’t return on the 9th day of her active dying, but my heart was just shattered and she was a shell. I tried to be with her for 8 days so I could be with her when she passed. No one could believe she was still hanging on. I think back to all the days over the last 8 years of the disease where I wish I held onto her tighter, but I was having my babies then and only had so much resources to go around. She lived next door to me for 4 of those years, and I did my best. I do worry it will be a long journey back to being able to think of her as anything other than having Alzheimer’s. I have had days when I do wish I had the luxury of numbing out. But I’m still here.


#856

That is so much to deal with. If there is anything we can do in the way of providing distraction or something please don’t be shy. I get wanting to be alone too though.


#857

Thinking about you tonight @Lula74 Hope you are doing well!


#858

Dear Heddy, I am so sorry for your loss. You have been a great support for your mum. I will pray for her at Mass today, may she rest in peace.
Take care, be kind to yourself. This is hard.


#859

@Annie_Craton hope you’re well.

@Heddy so sorry for your loss, I’m not sure how I’d handle that if I were in your shoes. Keep her in your thoughts, know that she’s in a better place. Stay in the present and don’t forget to enjoy life because it’s still happening, and those around you still want and need you in their lives.


#860

Very sorry for your loss @Heddy. I wish you peace, love and strength to get through these difficult times.


#861

@Twowaymirror don’t make me call you


#862

Glad to see you here! I haven’t been on the forum much as I’ve been focusing on other things. Sorry to hear you’re going through some stuff, sending well wishes your way.


#863

He liked my stuff on Instagram yesterday so he’s around somewhere!


#864

I’m going to text him tonight. I will let everyone know lol


#865

@PunkRockJeanna hope you’re doing well


#866

Thank you for the feedback. And happy to see you are ok


#867

@SobahCobra79 tell us how you’re doing


#868

Hi @Pleausy how are things? Not seen you check in for a little while…


#869

@Twowaymirror where you at??
@Englishd did you ever text him?


#870

I was wondering this last night too


#871

Yeah he’s doing well. He just needs to check in here more often


#872

@Betterbee are you out in the wilderness again?


#873

I broke down and messaged him on Instagram. :joy: