Hi @LeilaBird. Thank you so much for the shout out. Maybe it is the thing I need right now.
Sadly, I’m not doing great. Right around the time I posted about the guac and chips my life got flipped completely upside down.
I am sure that I have mentioned it the past about issues with my husband and his work/stress. Work life balance was NOT good. Well, we went on our vacation and everything was wonderful. He was sleeping, he was breathing well, he was not yelling…all good things. But as soon as we got home it was back to “normal”…or perhaps even worse. The GOOD thing is that I have finally convinced him to get on medication and take some medical leave from work. His work environment was absolutely TOXIC and both his phyical and mental health have suffered greatly. His off work but that hasn’t lessened our home stress. He is trying to figure out what his future will be. If he returns to work things likely won’t be any different even after 6 weeks off. If he quits his job he will likely require a large pay cut in any new job he gets. Depending on what he might find for work we might need to move which will be very stressful, especially for my incredibly anxious 12 year old!! If he retires our retirement income will also take a LARGE hit (and I’ll still be working for another 10+ years).
I’ve been struggling with all of this…and yes, I’ve used a few glasses of wine in the evening to relax. NOT GOOD!!
I’ve deleted my Sober Timer app for now. I will be coming back eventually, it isn’t like I’m sitting here saying “I don’t need sobriety”. I’m just not in that place right now. I would have thought that with my husband home I would have more time to focus on myself but instead I have less. I am doing a lot of handholding and reasuring etc. AND I’m still doing all the taking care of the home and the kids…and doing a very bad job at it.
For now, I guess I’ll read through a few posts and hopefully get some inspiration to put down the damn wine!!