Eric…I thought about that question. Since my drinking wasn’t out in the open and a part of everyone I know’s life, I’m good with the private celebration. My family and friends see me as a successful person into working out and eating healthy. The drinking in recent years was so infrequent that nobody was concerned. Except me. Because in my head it didn’t matter if it was once a week, once a month, or once a year. I was not committed to sobriety. My social and non- drinking friends don’t get that. Everyone here does. So I celebrate with you. And I have the internal gratification that is mine to celebrate, too.
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Exactly! Non-drinkers or social drinkers don’t have the same idea of sobriety that we do. Like you, I knew I wasn’t sober. And I felt like a lying fraud. With that came shame and all the other emotional rubbish. I feel good today and feel like I am living honestly.
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Potash man! Lots of it out here 
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I’m here and sober, but barely… (Edit: that’s more tongue in cheek with how crappy my week has been)
Question for any people with legal training (if there are any here, and not asking for legal advice), I’m trying to figure out if this is a legal matter or something I take up with the store corporate office:
Cutting out all irrelevant details to legal question, a grocery store pharmacist shared details of a phone conversation I had with him about my medication with a non-pharmacist store employee. Said employee followed me around the store until I confronted him and then he starts aggressively questioning me about my medication and mentioning details from the phone. He also accused me of things that never happened, but that apparently this pharmacist had told him (I have another pharmacist that can varify this), and made accusations about my character (which was really weird because I shop there all the time and have no issues).
The whole story is exhausting and not legally relevant, though it is something the corporate office needs to know about. I just don’t want to start talking if I need to see a lawyer. I have no idea how much this pharmacist could have shared about my medical information with this random employee.
For anyone wondering, the pharmacist found out I was going to contact corporate about an experience he was involved in, and part of what this other employee was trying to bully me into was taking my concerns to the store pharmacy manager.
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All I know is they definitely broke a hipaa law. So they definitely will get in trouble, I definitely would just tell the corporate offices. Not sure about legal advice
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That’s what I thought too. I don’t have a lot of law experience, besides… you know… being hit by a snowplow by my own company while driving to work. 
But not about this and I’ve learned since not to talk if you have to sue someone. I just want to be sure before I reach out, you know? I don’t want to screw myself over before I even start.
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Good morning all , just checking in 
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End of day 55 check in. Super busy day. We finally got some decent rain today. The garden is happy and hopefully will have some carrots and tomatoes soon. I have reached a point in life where this excites me. 
Happy sobering, friends.
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Substance free for…
Not much to report, been having some brutal muscle spasms for the last few days/nights. They are most likely the after math of my paddleboarding… I think it was worth it. Ask me again at the end of the weekend I may have changed my mind.
Was voted in for a service position in my homegroup tonight so that’s fun news I guess.
Congrats on your recovery everyone.
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Welcome to the forum Arsenal.
Not sure what you’re looking for.
But,
Here are two good threads to start:
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Checking in.
Checking out for the night. Sober AF.
Grateful all that shit is behind me.
Grateful I’m feeling pretty pretty great!
Grateful for the best daughter in the world.
Grateful I’m sober. I’m alone in Santa Monica and I could be drinking at any number places tonight for a reward for all I been through. I know I deserve it. But I don’t do that anymore.
Frankly, doing that was stupid.
I’ll take my reward in a good sober nights sleep with a hangover free morning.
Drinking alcohol s stupid. It is very off-putting, bad for you and, a lot of the time has negative outcomes
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Update
I feel like the past 4 or 5 days I’ve jusr been crying so much like emotionally purging and trying to accept the wreckage I’ve caused by my drinking
I’m trying to heal but there’s a lot of emotional stuff coming up
Plz tell me this is normal?
I’m physically sober but emotionally out of wack
I’m 66 days
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My mom and I are planning a fun bday party I wanted to have last year and couldn’t due to covid
I will get like a lot of cool non alcoholic drinks
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Day 222
@anon27760155 congratulations on your 1 year of sobriety awesome achievement 
@apes2020 sorry to hear about lockdown soooo frustrating, love your prints… thank you, just love my camping, brought loads of food with me, not spent any.money yet! Totally recommend, i feel free when i am away (when sober)
Good day, did another lovely beach walk, and thats it… read, knitted and ate food… just enjoying not hearing 4 alarms screaming at me in the morning. Big winds and rain last night loved being warm inside listening to it all. Some damage to camp, my windbreaker has seen its last days. On the move now to another county on the coast.
Have a good sober day 
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Thank you, you are always so thoughtful for others here. Much appreciated. The therapist is on vacation, so we have to wait a bit. But knowing we made some action gives peace in mind.
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Did you open up to your doctor about it who prescibed the Antabuse?
Ps welcome here!
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A magnesium supplement helps with that!!
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Yes, it’s normal. I found the first 3 months the most difficult to get trough. But even after that I had difficult days and I still do.
Recovery is work in progress, always. Almost like a relationship is. But it’s gets easier that I promiss 
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Being an addict is hard to admit, accepting that you can’t just enjoy alcohol like everyone else is a hard one to admit…
So we as addicts try everything possible to be able to carry on using our DOC.
Addiction doesn’t happen over night… What once was a socially acceptable thing becomes your go to everynight/day.
So we try everything we can as labelling yourself an addict isn’t easy, nor is it easy to accept…
- ill only drink 2 cans a night
- ill get to the weekend and then I can drink
- it’s only one before breakfast no big deal
- hard day at work, i think a nice cold one is in order…
- shit day, im gonna crack open a cold one
Over the years everyone will have tried everything as long as they don’t declare their addicts… All of us Will have tried moderation… Using it as a reward at end of a long week…
Recovery doesn’t come over night, there will be a fair few moments where alcohol has been your go to on coping…
I admire that you are trying, it’s time to learn new coping ways x
Take care x
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