Good morning all , just checking in 
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End of day 55 check in. Super busy day. We finally got some decent rain today. The garden is happy and hopefully will have some carrots and tomatoes soon. I have reached a point in life where this excites me. 
Happy sobering, friends.
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Substance free forā¦
Not much to report, been having some brutal muscle spasms for the last few days/nights. They are most likely the after math of my paddleboardingā¦ I think it was worth it. Ask me again at the end of the weekend I may have changed my mind.
Was voted in for a service position in my homegroup tonight so thatās fun news I guess.
Congrats on your recovery everyone.
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Welcome to the forum Arsenal.
Not sure what youāre looking for.
But,
Here are two good threads to start:
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Checking in.
Checking out for the night. Sober AF.
Grateful all that shit is behind me.
Grateful Iām feeling pretty pretty great!
Grateful for the best daughter in the world.
Grateful Iām sober. Iām alone in Santa Monica and I could be drinking at any number places tonight for a reward for all I been through. I know I deserve it. But I donāt do that anymore.
Frankly, doing that was stupid.
Iāll take my reward in a good sober nights sleep with a hangover free morning.
Drinking alcohol s stupid. It is very off-putting, bad for you and, a lot of the time has negative outcomes
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Update
I feel like the past 4 or 5 days Iāve jusr been crying so much like emotionally purging and trying to accept the wreckage Iāve caused by my drinking
Iām trying to heal but thereās a lot of emotional stuff coming up
Plz tell me this is normal?
Iām physically sober but emotionally out of wack
Iām 66 days
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My mom and I are planning a fun bday party I wanted to have last year and couldnāt due to covid
I will get like a lot of cool non alcoholic drinks
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Day 222
@anon27760155 congratulations on your 1 year of sobriety awesome achievement 
@apes2020 sorry to hear about lockdown soooo frustrating, love your printsā¦ thank you, just love my camping, brought loads of food with me, not spent any.money yet! Totally recommend, i feel free when i am away (when sober)
Good day, did another lovely beach walk, and thats itā¦ read, knitted and ate foodā¦ just enjoying not hearing 4 alarms screaming at me in the morning. Big winds and rain last night loved being warm inside listening to it all. Some damage to camp, my windbreaker has seen its last days. On the move now to another county on the coast.
Have a good sober day 
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Thank you, you are always so thoughtful for others here. Much appreciated. The therapist is on vacation, so we have to wait a bit. But knowing we made some action gives peace in mind.
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Did you open up to your doctor about it who prescibed the Antabuse?
Ps welcome here!
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A magnesium supplement helps with that!!
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Yes, itās normal. I found the first 3 months the most difficult to get trough. But even after that I had difficult days and I still do.
Recovery is work in progress, always. Almost like a relationship is. But itās gets easier that I promiss 
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Being an addict is hard to admit, accepting that you canāt just enjoy alcohol like everyone else is a hard one to admitā¦
So we as addicts try everything possible to be able to carry on using our DOC.
Addiction doesnāt happen over nightā¦ What once was a socially acceptable thing becomes your go to everynight/day.
So we try everything we can as labelling yourself an addict isnāt easy, nor is it easy to acceptā¦
- ill only drink 2 cans a night
- ill get to the weekend and then I can drink
- itās only one before breakfast no big deal
- hard day at work, i think a nice cold one is in orderā¦
- shit day, im gonna crack open a cold one
Over the years everyone will have tried everything as long as they donāt declare their addictsā¦ All of us Will have tried moderationā¦ Using it as a reward at end of a long weekā¦
Recovery doesnāt come over night, there will be a fair few moments where alcohol has been your go to on copingā¦
I admire that you are trying, itās time to learn new coping ways x
Take care x
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Morning! Just checking in from Wales. Went for a quick run and hated every minute 
Having a coffee and listening to the surf now. Have a good day all
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Thank you so much! I remember your avatar from my first soberiety pre aa attempt about 1.5 years ago! Thank you so much!!!
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Thank you for the article! Bookmarked it
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- Coffee. Busy free Friday for me. Going to Rijksmuseum for the first time since the I donāt know how manieth lockdown (sorry @apes2020 April). Got a spinning class lined up after that. Have a new/used coat/hat rack Iām going to attach to the wall. And lots of Olympics to watch. And a meal to cook. And some meditating to do (thanks @siand). And be in bed in time before my new work week starts.
Iām so happy and grateful this day doesnāt involve stupidly hanging out in the bar and drinking till wasted. So grateful I donāt do that no more. Life is so much better without it. Iām sober and clean and thatās the way I want to be. Have a great Friday all, or at least as good one as you all can. Make it clean and sober because thatās why we are all here. One day at a time. Love from Amsterdam.
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Morning walks with the dawg?!!
Need to get my fitbit steps in!!
Sporting the skater lookā¦ Pulled me back to the 90s, oh how I would love to be a teenager with the wisdom I have now!
I have a meeting with the head of inclusionā¦ Going through a few thingsā¦ The option of a rehab group just for lgbqt and Nero diverse shall be interestingā¦
I made a promise to myself that no matter how hard it got, I wouldnāt ever hide my diversity ever againā¦ Masking my whole life has had its consequencesā¦ I have been thinking alot and I am very thankful that my mother taught me alot of life skills.
I still struggle on not going to express my emotion with anger, I still struggle with impulsive behaviour and actually identifing what Iām feelingā¦ I for so long have catered for everyone else and never stopped to ask myself, how are you feeling?!?
When I left my sisters, my niece who is 8ā¦ Started crying, my sister and her other half just stood back, saying she gets over emotional the only thing I could do was embrace this little girl into a big hugā¦ I told her how Iād never forgot her and Iām here always!
I kissed this precious gemā¦ When I got into the car I cried, the tears just flowed jeez even now my eyes have teared up
And i still canāt tell you why I cried, why while I write this tears want to burst out.
It will be for me a fair few years before I can tell you what caused me to cryā¦ But for today Iām happy that I can express an emotion even if I donāt fucking understand it!
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Lucky 13.
I have an old friend coming to visit for a few days. I expect the temptation will be strong, so I have been mentally preparing myself to ride the waves.
Will make more of an effort to check in here when those voices say, āGo on, just have one. You can start again tomorrow.ā
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