I’m glad you made it and you seem to be OK(ish) without sleep. I wish you a nice day without to much sleepiness. 
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I have heard it in the podcast
“4 Brüste für ein Halleluja”
by Sophia Thiel and Paula Lambert 
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Thank you! It will be a good day. The coffee i made this morning is extra strong so im feeling abit more awake now. I still should probably take it easy today tho. Light activities. Hope u have a fantastic day also!!!
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Fun fact about coffee. The light roasts have the most caffeine. The longer the bean is roasted the more caffeine is cooked out. I like the light roast coffee because the taste isn’t super bitter and it gives me a kick 
hope your day is peaceful and you are able to get to the things you want to. 
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Checking in for day 42.
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Is this a podcast for a mature audience? 
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How cool!!! I truly didnt know that! I love my coffee. But its one of those things that i have to watch how much i consume. I have a cold brew coffee maker and it steeps for 12 hours. I cant drink that everyday bcuz its loaded with caffeine and my body gets used to things too easily. So then when I do drink normal coffee, it does nothing for me. Ugh
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Who are the hosts? And what are the topics?
Hope you’re feeling better and was able to remain focus. I woke up just now feeling like you, I feel so annoyed and frustrated. Going on 12 days, I can do this!!!
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Spotify… You can listen and read the trailer there, so you will know what it is about.
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Day 21 AF. Feeling very down today. Too many complications in my life. Wish I could just go away somewhere and leave it all behind, but I can’t.
I don’t miss alcohol and the meda my doc prescribed have been very effective against the cravings. I passed a wine shop today and didn’t feel the urge. My other mental issues (BPD and CPTSD) are almost unmanageable, now that the alcohol is gone. I am at the very edge.
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Do you dilute your cold brew when it’s done brewing? I’m pretty sure you’re supposed to (I always have to at work)
I wonder what would happen if i drank light roast cold brew undiluted 
probably run all day and clean the whole house, before crashing super hard. Haha
To be fair i do drink roughly 20 espresso shots a shift…so not sure the comparison. I just feel like cold brew does something espresso doesn’t 
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Yep, I’ve been there a time or two. It feels awful. I’m so sorry you’re having a rough time 
Sending you hugs and positive energy
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I’m feeling down myself and on my way to work, where I have to keep it together. Most my co-workers know I’m “moody” so they know when to leave me alone. What helps me is walks in nature, breathing exercises and last resort I have a big metal pole weighing 45lbs at home and I just bang it on the ground unroll I can’t no more. Not sure if that’s even healthy…
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I feel your pain. I’m sitting here trying to work (at home thankfully) and can’t keep my shit together. Anxiety and depression are out of control so I keep breaking down. I used alcohol to numb all of that. I think I’ll go for a walk as soon as it stops raining. Hang in there! We can do hard things.
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That is 100% healthy. You’re part of a strong club of people who work it out physically actually - Eric @Dazercat for example did a lot of power walks in his early days, listening to angry music (Tell Us Something You Did To Stay SOBER Today! - #40 by Dazercat); @Yoda-Stevie started martial arts training and now he’s a black belt and teaches his own classes (How do you cope? - #16 by Yoda-Stevie); there’s all kinds of other people here who’ve taken that raw energy they discover when they’re getting healthy (sober & clear), and they channel it into building something.
Energy is powerful. Energy is what you discover when you get clear - when you stop poisoning and numbing yourself with your addiction. Energy can be scary and at first it feels overwhelming (sort of like a wild horse), but it can be tamed and harnessed (also like a horse), and when you do that you can use that power to get where you want to go.
You matter and you are 100% capable of this. Don’t give up; use this time to dig deep, look yourself in the mirror, and say, “Today I’m not giving in. I’m not worrying about tomorrow, I’m not stuck on the past; I’m living today, and today I’m going to focus on getting what I need and doing what I need to do, to be the person I want to be.”
You can do this Katy 
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Checking in on day 129 AF
The weekend was smooth. Spent a lot of time with family. Did some cleaning yesterday but didn’t get nearly as much done as I had hoped. Spent some time last night kinda beating myself up over it. I read in a post by @ReeBee28 about doing one chore a day in the home. That’s an idea that would totally work for me! So I’m going to start that today.
Today is the 19th anniversary of my father’s suicide. I typically struggle around this time of year, but not necessarily on this exact day. Friday was definitely a shit day struggle-wise, but after a calm weekend I feel very much at peace today. I’m just trying to stay proactive instead of waiting for the darkness to grab hold of me.
My daughter is home for a few days and I am SO enjoying her! I have to go back to a very rigid routine when she’s with me, but I don’t get overwhelmed because I know it’s only for a few days. Sometimes I’m shocked that I was able to somehow manage that for 31 years! @Butterflymoonwoman I’m SO glad you only had to endure 1 night without a caretaker! I can only imagine how difficult that is, but I’m happy for you that it didn’t end up being more days.
I’m hoping and praying for everyone struggling to stay sober just for today. You CAN do this!!! 
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@Ktorres @KarenKW @nerd It’s good to see, how you support each other! 
From my own experiences, it’s seems to be the best, to find something to break the thinking and feeling cycle like go for a walk, go to a meeting, watch short vids on YouTube, call someone… As soon as you break out, the intensity of the thinkig either diminished or is completely gone.
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Day 8 
had a using dream last nite hate them tbh
So managed to drop my morphine down to 30 mg a day had my nefopam increased to 30 mg a day as the pain is still bad had a ct the other week and the cyst on my pancreas has shrunk even more which is good news in a way
My amylase was at 500 more than my last bloods so feeling like crap 
Disney day today watching home alone 2 still funny as hell
Have a good sober Monday people
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