Hey I was also a binge drinker. Started at 14, was fun for a while… Until it wasn’t. Sounds like you’ve had a lot to deal with. Why did you stop counselling - is it something you could look at picking up again?
We have all been there, doing things we really wish we hadn’t because of our DOC (drug of choice) and feeling terrible about it. The good news is that you don’t have to feel like this ever again.
Learning how to deal with life without turning to drink takes time and patience. It isn’t always easy, but it’s definitely worth it. Sounds like your partner should be happy if you stop drinking, even if it is an adjustment at first. Honest, open and kind communication are key!
Having a support network is so important. This app is a brilliant place to start. There are lots of recovery groups out there (e.g. AA, SMART). Read, read and read this forum. Use the search bar 
to find specific information. The FAQs thread has lots of links to threads which might be helpful to get you started.
Keep checking in and reach out whenever you need to!