That’s a cool idea!
I have a tattoo and it didn’t hurt, but the noise was a bit creepy.
She came on Sunday! She’s such a sweetheart. I’m gonna miss her lol. I love her so much. She’s such a heckin smartie.
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Yeah, thanks. For me, everything hurts more than for most people. It’s a redhead thing. But I think a big part of my recovery is to overcome anxiety and whatnot.
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Forgot to take birth control for 2 days. Getting cramps and stuff. I feel like I’m about to get my period and I hate it so freaking much.
Ok so I was talking to myself in the car (this will be long), which I always do cause ya know… I’m weird. Btw, does anyone else do that?
I was imagining trying to explain to people why I am how I am. Cause I come up with weird scenarios lol. I talked about the assaults and how I wanted closure and I realised reporting it wouldn’t give me closure.
I realized what would give me closure is learning to manage those memories and then getting to be a really awesome person and be the best person I can and do what I’m passionate about. That will prove to me and everyone else that I’m not letting those things be the defining moment of my life.
Yes they changed me and made me who I am, but they’re not what matter and they aren’t me.
I realised I’ve forgiven them for what they did and for being stupid, but I haven’t forgiven Spencer for trying to physically force me. Because that crosses a line from being ignorant and a kid to intentional assault. And people say you have to forgive to let it go and move on, but I realised I don’t want to let it go. It’s taught me so much and changed me so much. It’s helped me learn to say no. And I don’t want to forgive and let go because its valuable to me. I do want to be able to control when I think about it and whatnot.
But yeah. Random car thoughts lol😂
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Digging into a carrot cake. It’s really good and I’m going to try to exercise some self control and save some for tomorrow lol.
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Good! I always do that. Excersice and save a bit of cake of baked good for the next day, so when I wake up, I remember I have it and have a great start in the morning!
I did get a semicolon…
Maybe someday I’ll be able to talk about it here…
And then got this…
Nothing can stop me, not even myself.
And I have a phoenix on my back.
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That’s so cool!!!
Omg I love all of those!
I’ve always been scared of tattoos. I’m really pain sensitive. But I really like to face my fears (sometimes lol)
Also, If you ever want to talk about it, were here for you.
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Omg that’s smart!!! Lol love it!
I’m really sad. Been obsessing over this svar I have and thinking of self harm. Have a super bad headache. And my bf isn’t talking to me and I miss him cause I’m on my period and I get needy and have pms and feel crappy. So I’m crying and it’s just so stupid and I hate everything. I don’t hate everything. I hate some things.
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Hugs 
What’s your day count on self harm now? I know it’s only today that matters, but just think of everything you’ve done without it over those days. Awesome!
Hope you’re feeling better soon 
I’m at 595. That’s true. Done cool things. Just struggling a crap ton rn. Is mad annoying. Having trouble staying awake and having trouble getting overwhelmed and trouble thinking and doing things. Is mad annoying.
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I loved how you recovery-corrected what you said to “I dont hate everything. I hate some things”. I am working on the same honesty and perspective adjustment with myself when I’m upset. Beautiful progress, hope we both keep up the hard work evolving ourselves into resilient adults!
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Trying to find new ways to cope can be difficult.
Shows an movies help
Thank you. Yeah, adjusting your POV and mannerisms is really important lol.
We got this!!!
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Yeah. Been watching a ton of TV and YouTube lol. It’s a time.
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Me to. Lol
The animal voice overs help me get in a better mood.
Haha yeah. I love animals!!!
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I tried to explain to my mom why I had a panic attack when she yelled at me to clean the dishes. I was trying to explain that I was already stressed and having a hard time. She just said I was being dramatic cause I was crying. I’m not. And now I can barely stop myself from cutting and it’s hard and I think imma throw up. And idk what to do. My phsychiatrist hasn’t responded and it’s been like 4 days. It’s hard. And I can’t. Idk what to do. Everything’s so hard and I don’t know what to do.
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