New title: Checking in here when I need to vent or need advice

Do they have a drama group or anything at school?

Yes, but I don’t know any of them. Plus, I’ll be a senior when I join and idk. In too scared to do it lol. I’ve been thinking of doing some club or something about music or whatever in college. Idk.

Or a choir maybe? You can just stand in the back then :joy:

Lol yeah. That would be fun. But not a churchy choir lol.

I haven’t exercised much this week, and it’s annoying. I’ve also been thinking a lot about how fat i am and it’s been tough. And I’m scared of falling into my old ways. So I’m going to try to talk about it here a bit extra and maybe check in if it’s bugging me.

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Yes always check in and talk about it here! How is it going in therapy atm? Is it something you could bring up there?

Also you’re welcome to join us on this thread:

I’ll try. Therapy’s going alright. I mean no one knows that I had eating issues in the past. It wasn’t that bad, but I don’t want it to happen again and I don’t want it to get any worse than that. And idk. I just don’t really want to tell them about it, cause I’m fat and I feel stupid being fat and saying I used to not eat. Idk.

I actually kind of like that group. I’m gonna check it out.

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I’ve been writing about my flashbacks and cutting and all that. I think I’m gonna post it here. I’ve been having a rough time recently both with cutting and self loathing and idk. We’ll see.

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Hey if you want to share that we will of course support you here :heart: I suggest you join the Seeking Help group for that kind of thing. It reduces the risk of triggering others as well as giving an extra layer of privacy. I can’t work out how to link directly to it, but you can find it here:

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I agree with @siand. Post in Seeking help. This process will not only help you, but also other people who are struggling as well.

I’m almost to one year! I’m a little over a month away from it! Whoo! That’s crazy!

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That’s amazing ! Keep going :kissing_closed_eyes:

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Wahoo amazing! :clap::woman_cartwheeling::tada::dancing_women:‍♀:raised_hands:

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@Kakimime1,

It really amazes me how you managed to stay sober from cutting for this long. And it wasn’t easy. You’ve had the urges, but didn’t give in. Don’t know how you did it, but I commend you.

Please share what you feel has helped you get to this point.

Thank you for sharing your experience, strength, weakness, and hope. You’re an inspiration to us all.

Thank you!:blush:
Honestly, I went to a hospital and they helped a ton. I didn’t only learn about the skills, but they had us practice them, which helped a ton.

Now, most of what helps me is remembering that my feelings are temporary but ok to feel. Like I’ll tell myself, “Ok, I’ll be fine in a few hours, but it’s ok that I’m sad right now.”

Thank you!

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@Tino
@siand
Thanks!!:blush:

I’ve visited three colleges this week and I have one more tomorrow. It’s been both fun and really tiring. I’m tired rn so I’m not writing much.

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Oh wow that’s very exciting! How’s it been going, what did you think of them?

Im wish you gain strength and the abilitY to show who youre reallY.

Yea it really sucks . Im also bi but thats not the point everyones okay with it so dont worry about that.
its just horrible I lived with serious drug addiction for more than two years. While my peers were having fun, having relationshipS, leading lives where they learn how life works, I was taking pills just to not withdraw, spent all my time and money on drugs, sometimes awake for 4 days. I also wish Ill live a normal life but I know exactly how:
Healthy food, exercise, staying sober, meditation/art/etc, and being in love with myself