Woke up back to day one. I’m really struggling to get some days together. But every time I slip I pick up another tool - like today I didn’t even know this support community existed I just used the app to keep day check. This is amazing - I drank 2 bottles of wine but somehow it hardly even affects me anymore it’s quite scary. Very scary. I don’t want this life anymore. I’m getting ready for work feel awful - but I’m picking myself up and starting again. I will not give up giving up. Thanks for letting me share
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There are no coincidences in life, you found our little gang of gorgeous sick people just at the time you needed it. Good news for you is you don’t have to do this alone anymore, Good news for us is we get to help and watch you blossom into the real you. Keep reading, share your thoughts and journey but most importantly next time you want to drink come and chat with people on here. Together we are stronger. I wish you well on your journey 
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I found this community by sheer luck too and it has gotten me going for 170 days now! Take it one day at a time, we are here for you!
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Don’t beat yourself up over a mistake, one day at a time. I’m recently starting over too so keep your head up.
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Ye it really is just God sent. When I did have more to an 4 years it was because of the sober community around me in london and now being in Cape Town the recovery scene is very different. I need all the tools I can get my monkey brain is so fucking loud at the moment. 4pm like clock work. Time to wine. And that’s it won’t stop until I’m satisfied. I feel far from my true self at the moment but I can feel her fighting to be heard and seen for the wine not to win anymore. I deserve more than this I deserve to be my whole self all the time
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Thank you for this forum. I feel a glimmer of hope just from this chat.
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Thank you 
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Welcome, I know that road because I walked it. The longer we drink our tolerance to poison strengthens so it can pull us further down the black hole of toxicity and self-loathing.
I was a binge weekend drinker most of my life, and by the time I was in my late thirties I was drinking during the week along with tying in weekends. The one bottle of wine wasn’t enough…built up to a bottle and a half to two.
Tried vodka for a stretch of time, and that was just a mess. Went to beer thinking that would be “normal”…it wasn’t. I finally realized that alcohol and me will never have a “normal” relationship…it would always be toxic.
You now have too (and that is awesome!), but even with this realization you will always have to be mindful that it is toxic…the alcohol brain will always try to find a way to trick you into thinking…”you got this” we never will have it…
Your gonna have tough days…trust me I know them all too well, but with each day AF you will become stronger in mind and spirit, your body will rejuvenate itself, and you will rise into a new chapter.
Be easy with yourself. If you fall down don’t stay down…pick yourself up and keep pushing!
Keep coming here…even if you only read. It is a tool to keep you mindful…and everyone here understands the path…because we all walk with you.
Be Blessed
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Your words are so kind. Thank you. Thank you for all your belief in me
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You’re welcome…now you need to work on believing in you!
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Welcome to the forum! This is a great place to find support and feel like you’re not alone in your fight. It has helped me out tremendously, and I find that my slip ups happen when I’m not using this as a tool to get through my cravings. Check in daily - it really does help!
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This place saved my life. If I may give you one lesson I learned…in hindsight…
Picking up that first drink is 100% a choice. Cravings will not kill me. Urges, will not kill me. Peer pressure will not kill me. Picking up that 1st drink will.
Now, tools…like this wonderful place, help us make that choice. There are many others out there
Be active here, it helps.
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Yes, this forum is awesome. I use this in conjunction with AA meetings every week. This past weekend I felt a craving starting to come on, so I whipped out my phone and joined the forum. Pretty soon the “Crave Monster” went away and left me alone. It is definitely effective.
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That’s a golden nugget, right there! That’s what we all do, if we allow it.
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Went on vacation and totally fell off my sobriety wagon. Back at it today with fresh attitude and a hoping heart.
How long were you sober?
I was sober for 4 years, back out for 1, since after Covid it’s been really difficult to get the momentum back. 2 months off one month back on. Now I’m struggling to get a few days. But I really feel like this platform could change my life. I do attend meetings aswell. I want ALL the tools - every single one of the tools. I need them all! I am still figuring out the app it’s quite intimidating if you don’t know what’s where. Where would I do a daily check in? Or reach out when a craving hits?
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There’s a daily check-in, someone will post it here for you.
I’m glad you’re not giving up. Those big temptations definitely have to be thought out ahead of time.
I like to think it’s not an option for me anymore.
Here is the check-in thread.