Just recently activated my LinkedIn profile again. Got a free month LinkedIn premium, so could see the people who watched my profile. Saw one guy with an interesting trackrecord in healthcare. Contacted him via a message to ask whether we could meet to get to know each other mentioning that Iām looking for a role in the healthcare sector for example as an experience expert. He replied within minutes that he is willing to meet, no answer yet on my proposal for a time. He is supervising a company were there is an opening for an experience expert. So connected those dots already. That head of mine .
Screw my re-integration coach, Iām taking over the wheel (sorry needed to let that out ).
@Pamela congrats on 2 weeks and the first hurdle @acromouse congrats on your 30 day milestones @Chevy55 congrats on 30 days
1272 days no alcohol.
737 days no cocaine.
252 days no vape.
Checking-in with yesterdayās numbersā¦
Very relaxed day, my mind was calm and peaceful and I just enjoyed the welcomed relief of that.
Late afternoon my dad called me to say my brother and his family were visiting in the evening as they hadnāt seen him for his birthday yet. He didnāt think I would go because they were getting a Chinese takeaway, and I canāt drive in the dark, but wanted to invite me anyway. I initially declined, but then I thought about it a lot and didnāt want to pass up on the opportunity to see my nieces, as I did reach out to my SIL earlier in the week to ask when I could visit again, but she said they were busy for the forseeable. So I decided to get a taxi to my dadās to spend the evening with them all, and it was really nice, I was planning to get a taxi home but my dad gave me a lift so that was nice of him. Unfortunately having a small portion of takeaway Chinese, lead to a binge with my diet bars when I got home, I ate 3 instead of 1, nothing major, especially in comparison to my binge-eating history, but I want to stay fully accountable because the familiar feelings of losing control and guilt and shame were present, I had a good streak, Iāll get it back, and more hopefully.
I hope youāre all having wonderful sober weekends.
Cheking in. Typical I allways check in when Im having a hard day. Something is going on, and I never know if its Something bad going on or if its just my anxiety. āJustā, becaus its hell no just just. I know I have health anxiety. And no matter what I feel, like fex a little sting some place, my alarm goes of LOUD, and I start to feel Something everywhere. Tired of this. Tomorrow Im going for my first emdr, but now Im scared to because of whats going on in my body.
Oh my gosh I am sorry to hear that, especially as a parent!
Schools really have a contradictory approach to bullying. They say 0 tplerance and thenā¦8 years of that shit your daughter has gone through. Good for her standing up for herself & good for you trying to guide her through it. Xo
Today the storm clouds are gathering in my head. Telling me that nothing will work out, that Iām dying, that Iām worthless, that Iāll never be free of pain, that Iām a loser, that actually the world owes me, that Iāve been screwed, and on and on. Iāve done all the things Iām supposed to do and nothing helps. So I guess I just have to ride this out. Itās very very unpleasant. I have to remember this will pass even though it doesnāt feel like it. I hate being angry: I feel like Iām one moment away from saying fuck it. Everything has gotten so much harder since I got clean. Why. Why why why.
12 or 13 days weed free. I keep forgetting. 2007 days alcohol free. 2 days gamble free. Lost snother pool tournament last night. But played OK so wasnt too upset. Lol
Missed check in last night, I think for the first time. I didnāt forget. I should have checked in before I went out bc I was too tired when I got home after helping my friend prep her attic for painting today. Iāll check in again tonight when the number rolls over. Enjoy your Sunday!
Hope things with your cousin turn out for the good @Mischa84 . Iām so sorry you have to worry about him not being able to be there.
My brother and his wife are having a hard time with her son. Drug abuse and addiction effects life of so many people besides the addictā¦ It is just hard.
Stay strong and positive my dear!
Checking in after a chilled day. Took Rocky for a beautiful walk this morning in the countryside, so blessed to live here. He absolutely loved it!! Looking after my poorly cat suki, sheās 15 and her dementia has progressed the last couple of weeks. Trying to make her life as easy as possible, thinking sheās loving the extra attention too! My boys came back from their dads yesterday, was meant to be today but they wanted to come home early, lovely having some extra time with them, though my nearly 16 year old spent most of it gaming till he wanted me to get the clippers out on his hair lol Apparently I did a better job then his barber so heās now stationed me as his new one chilling at the mo with Rocky then an early night. Have appointment tomorrow with Archieās consultant regarding his CFS, hoping that will go ok hope you have all had a blessed Sunday
Spent most of the day at the hospital with my wife; She started to feel quite unwell last night and we had to go to the Accident & Emergency dept this morning. A boatload of blood tests, blood pressure checks, xrays etc later and sheās back home in her own bed.
Luckily, as far as I know, heās alright now more or less. We used to be very close, we grew up together in same house, he is 2 years older than me so we always were good friends. Together we fucked up ours young lives with never ending parties and drugs, later with alcohol. Apparently, when we started families etc we continued drinking but more secretly. I donāt even know what is he doing cause we barely talking, unfortunately we both are not phone calls type of people. I know i have to step up but i donāt know how
About @SoberWalker birthday, Ive seen thread about people having bday at February and Claudia was on the list, 3rd Feb. But I have some feeling it was few weeks ago she was celebrating idk, probably Iām wrong.
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chilling at the mo with Rocky then an early night. Have appointment tomorrow with Archieās consultant regarding his CFS, hoping that will go ok 
hope you have all had a blessed Sunday 
idk, probably Iām wrong.