@Jdiaz A great program there! Keep at it.
@Galen_82 Congratulations 
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Jasmine you are too nice! Lol if I was hosting I would have byob peeps!! 
hope you have a great time!!! 
glad you got to have a surprise visit with your sis!!
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Thank you so much!! I am having a great time!! I dont even wanna smoke!! Im suprised and really happy!!
I didnt write it, but this week i told my daughter that i quit smokingā¦i didnt take a pictureā¦but my god her faceā¦i keep it in mind!! It helps!!! š«¶š»š«¶š»:heart:
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Checking in 21 days AFā¦ 3 fucking weeks! 
Nothing exciting to report. Quiet Saturday night in with the husband. Think Iām going to convince him to order pad thai tonight!
@Sara.eve hope you enjoy your concert with out too much temptation! You got this!!! 
@Saturn81 Sober Buddy!!! Did I miss your check in today, Michelle?! I hope youāre doing well and hanging in there!!! keep going friend!
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Oh thatās wonderful to keep in mind ā¦glad u r not having urges and enjoying your time
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Hey John.
Congratulations on the 27 days 
Good to see you again.
Working a gratitude list on here for more than 3 years has totally retrained my brain. I got so much to be grateful for when Iām sober. I never start a day without it.
The lights are always on. Bring your own coffee 
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6 days 
spent the day on a beach in Texas it was so fun and beautiful, here visiting friends - margaritas were at dinner tonight and I didnāt crave one - and there was wine last night and I didnāt crave any. thatās a great feeling because our last girls trip I had as much wine as possible! feeling strong into my 7th day sober and I am so grateful to be starting my new life itās very meaningful to me. love you guys
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Hey darlinā¦ Iām okay; will have 3 weeks as of midnight tonight, woo hoo!! Healing going okay; i got my staples out and hard cast on. Another month with that. Then a boot, then PTā¦ then maybe walking again by Thanksgiving. Oy veyyyā¦ Plus this morning, my live-in bf finally made the exec decision that weāre breaking up and heās leaving (things have been rocky pretty much since he moved in 9 months ago) but is going to āstay to help me outā (ie doesnāt have enough money to move). So, the next couple of months are going to be JUST GREAT lol. But i wonāt be drinking through themā¦
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Day 827 alcohol free. Down to six beads from the capsule on the antidepressant taper and I am still feeling the withdrawal effects. Mild brain zaps and such. I have been so irritable and on edge lately. What is wrong with me. I really hope I can sort this out.
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Great to hear from you and glad you are doing well with your 3 weeks of sobriety and healing too.
Yes - the next few months do sound a bit hectic / exciting for you - i do hope that he is able to help out and make life a bit easier for you 
This all may be a new happier chapter in your life turning the page.
Loved reading this. We will be right here with you so lean on us if you need to. Thank you for checking in.
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I am sorry Drew. Are you able to talk with your doctor about this? Maybe you are not ready for this dosage at the moment. Medications and side effects can be tricky - be gentle with yourself ā absolutely nothing wrong with youā¦just need a little help regulating neurons. 
827 days of sobriety is fantastic!
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**Day 1824 
Going to get packed for holiday.
Had a customer yesterday who was asking the definition of my sober tattoo. I have the Latin name of a special flower on my arm.
The Dutch name of a flower also represent a group of people who exist ages ago in the Netherlands and where against drinking. They represents themselves with wearing this flower daily.
It was a regular customer couple and I like them so I lifted some of this tattoo background.
Told them it was a special flower wich represents many things in my life. The man said āand are you a non drinker also?ā
And you know my answer 
Glad Iām a non drinker for a while now.
A bit awkward conversation it was because it felt so private. Most of the time when people ask about this peticular tattoo I answer āitās personalā.
But for me itās the perfect sober tattoo!
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Tapering down an antidepressant is difficult I know. I did it ages ago and hated the feeling in my brain, still can recollect it. Hope you feel better soon!
Ps, and I do not think there is anything wrong with you beside this is difficult for you to go trough. Donāt be to harsh for yourself 
I see that Iāve wrote the same as @JazzyS 
Weāll we must have a point then
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Omg! I hope you have an amazing time seeing Rancid. Iāve loved them forever! I saw them at Warped Tour 2001 and it was awesome. I was 14 and didnāt drink or anything else and still had a blast! Hope you do too 
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Checking in
Happy Sunday
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Real late check in.
Lazy, relaxing day until work. Which was actually pretty busy, but prosperous. A lot of my coworkers are sick with the exact same symptoms I had last week. Thinking of that one night I thought I was dehydrated and couldnāt cool down, it never crossed my mind it couldāve been a fever, bc it was 95Ā° outside. I was achy, short of breath, with headaches for a couple days, then it turned into a sinus thing. My eyes have been bloodshot for about a week, stuffy nose, and itchy throat which leads me to think itās Ragweed now. Idk. I feel fine otherwise.
Coworkers invited me out again. Same bar as last time. Only a few ended up showing up but it was a nice time. Now its late and Iām ready for bed. Guilt free sleeping in, here I come 
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Hey all, checking in on day 1190. I hope everybody has a good one!!
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Iām here, Iām alive and Iām sober.
1 month and four days.
I know I havenāt been on here lately, and a lot of you have wondered about where I am, or how Iām doing.
My husband isnāt really doing better, but he isnāt getting worse either.
Still no insurance money.
And my boss has simply said that Iām either going back to being a special teacher/ personal assistant to the little girl I worked with before the summer. Or Iām out of work after Christmas.
I kindly asked her to go to hell. Not really professional I know,but at this point sheās so much of a jerk that I simply donāt care. At the moment I also have two collegues thatās about to work themselves to a burnout, and Iām doing extra hours next week to give them some rest. And my boss just donāt care, itās more like sheās actually trying to get them to quit.
Also I made a late application to another university to become a sports class/ gym teacher. Because I canāt get into the regular teacher program. I donāt have the Math required. I did start a math class earlier this month, but I have up because Frankly I can barley use the high school basics. And our teacher expects us to sit for three hours and just count in a book without any help from her. Not something I want to waste my time on.
Still havenāt decided if I want to study to become a teacher. Iām not even sure that I want to go back to school again.
My Ma keeps doing her drink calls, she called and talked for three hours this Friday.
Iām just frustrated with life at the moment. So hanging out here is not really anything I have the mental space or strength to do right now. Not my usual positive self, not having the constant hope for the future that I used to have. And I really donāt have the energy to fight anything anymore. Iām justā¦I guess I can say that my soul is tired.
Tired of being in constant survival mode. Tired of not knowing who I am, what I like, who I want to be. But constantly being who I need to be at the moment, to please someone else.
Canāt even check in here saying that Iām happy to be here, or happy to be sober. Because Iām not. I still wonāt drink or do anything else. Itās not worth it. But Iām not happy about it.
Probably not the post yāall expected or wanted to have. But unfortunately thatās the truth.
I hope yāall are doing better than me at the moment.
You guys now I adore you.
Wishing you all a wonderful weekend.
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Hello all, checking in on Day 3. I was hoping to have more before admitting my recent relapse but think that probably isnāt helpful as I really need support and accountability.
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Please do not apologize Della. You need to be free to express all the feelings ur feeling. You are loved and supported here. Always.
āstruggle can make you stronger. Post-traumatic growth (PTG) is a form of positive change that people experience as a result of struggling with major life crises or a traumatic event. PTG happens when someone who struggles to bounce back experiences a traumatic event, which makes him question his core beliefs, undergo psychological struggles, challenge his capabilities, and finally achieve a sense of personal growth.ā 105 days is fabu! Way to go!
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