Today is my first day here. I stopped alcohol in December but I still struggle with Benadryl.
My use started the end of 2019 when I almost lost my husband to suicide. It was so traumatic that between the nightmares & the sound of it all on constant replay in my head, I couldn’t sleep… for 6 months. I started taking Benadryl regularly to pass out & quickly got hooked on an emotional level. I started taking it to shut the world out whenever my emotions felt too big. I stopped taking it in February but just relapsed the 3rd. So, I’m hoping that counting my days might motivate me to appreciate the trials I’ve gotten through without it.
My husband is alive & well. Life has ups & downs, & I am currently searching for new coping skills. If y’all have any self help books to recommend on facing your triggers or managing reactions, I’d love to add them to my list. 
