1st of all WELCOME. You’ve made a huge step reaching out for help. I would highly recommend exploring the threads. I will tag a few I found helpful. I was in a very similar situation just in a different order. I hope you stick around. I have found so many lovely friends here (corny yes, true also yes) 
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https://talkingsober.com/t/whats-your-plan/177233
There are many many great threads