35 days sober, and 1 month into being single. Vowed to not be in a relationship or drink for at least a year until I can get my bpd symptoms under control. Currently in DBT therapy and putting myself first!
Yes, my most recent partner and I ended it. It broke my heart. He really saw me for who I was, but my bpd symptoms were just so severe. We only dated for five months but things moved fast. Maybe too fast. Sometimes I felt like this rush or high. I was devastated when he called it. We are both very much in love… we haven’t talked in a few weeks. My symptoms have lessened by A LOT… which says a lot to me. I yearn for a meaning relationship and to settle down one day. But learning I have bpd within the last couple of months paired with a fast paced relationship really set me off and i was having episodes and anxiety attacks almost every fucking weekend. Alcohol definitely did not help. It made my symptoms worse when I just wanted to feel normal. I am hoping focusing on myself for at least a year will get me where I want to be. Confident, comfortable in my skin, and more secure in myself and who I am and what my core values are
My foot surgery selfie! Wearing this stylish boot through the holidays. Tres chic! Check out the plastic toe guard! Perfect for people like me who can stub a toe while standing still.
@JasonFisher thank you! Time certainly has been flying . Sometimes it feels like just yesterday I found you all here
@Mbwoman Thanks and yes 1 year is approaching fast. That definitely has me a bit excited but I try not to think about it too much out of fear future tripping might somehow cause me to blow it before I get there. Wishing you a speedy recovery from your surgery.
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