Day 234! Today my adhd investigation starts. This is thanks to me being able to stay clean and give negative test results for a couple of months. Feels like I’m starting to see some good consequences with stuff. I’m not used to that.
Have a great Friday everyone! 
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@GVLNative wow you doing amazing with your challenge and congratulations for completing stage 6 the name would have me running for the hills 
you be proud so deserved. You should trat yourself to a massage or something following day 9 your body will thank you for it.
Lazy day was nice but i have too much to do with job hunt etc so will be busy today. Did have feelings of guilt! Yes we hitting our days pays on backs… catch up later have a good day 
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If you think you can’t do it and you don’t want to go back to day 1, just don’t go. There will be more parties.
If you do go for whatever reason, have a plan. Decide what you will drink. How you will deal with anyone offering you a drink of asking why you’re not drinking - which is not at all a big deal but it’s best not to let this catch you off guard. Have fun anyway! Be silly, dance, speak to people and savour the fact you will remember it all. Leave early, especially if everyone is getting wasted - it gets boring and they won’t remember. You may be surprised at how much less other people drink than you might have imagined. You will likely not be the only person leaving early.
The thing to remember is that no one else cares about your drinking (or not drinking) as much as you do!
There are a few links to more detailed conversations about sober socialising in the FAQs too 
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So happy to read this! 
Keep checking in mate and reach out whenever you need to 
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This is basically the goal I have got for my CBT. Going from disliking myself to only disliking myself sometimes #aimhigh 
We also had a conversation about whether I can’t be nice to myself, or I won’t. I think it probably is won’t… I am trying to look at it like it is something I won’t do yet. Trying to leave the possibility open even though I just can’t see that pathway at the moment.
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- Doing a bit better and already questioning my decision to go to the doctor and ask for a referral to diagnosis and therapy. It’s thanks to all your personal stories and travel paths through life I’m staying on course. Alone I would not make this. Becoming sober is about so much more as becoming sober. And I’m on my own road but need to see and hear about all the other roads you are one. Forever in your debt, all of you. Coming here keeps me focused and accountable. Sober and clean love from Amsterdam and the Navajo Nation.
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I tried going to the doctors a few times for mental health… By the time the appointment came I always felt ok and just brushed it off.
This time round I have learned, for me, I need to write a list to make sure I get across what I want to say. At my last doctors appointment I didn’t take a list and I just didn’t say what I should have.
I am going to do this for my CBT too!
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Yes to that! Will do too.Thanks for the advice.
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When u have little time it is so easy to not say what u want. And so difficult to explain a complex situation to get the details across. Ends up being very broad brushstrokes.
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Checking in, slowly feeling better. First PTSD therapy appointment this morning. We’ll see how that goes.
Went and toured/picked out my new apartment building uptown yesterday. Beautiful city view. I’m waiting for the side of building I want along with floor preference, so it will be a few months until one opens up. But I’m excited.
My legs were nice to me at the gym yesterday, thank God. I was getting nervous. But I felt great and ran like the wind 
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3 more days and im @150 i think 
That last part is true “the blacksocks” community is still present but time moves on and so at this times its not that bad anymore and also there’s more understanding between the hardcore goddies and the other ones…(with the human gossiping off course )
They dont shung people anymore for working sunday or open up the store. But the beach from Katwijk to Noordwijk 6km is my daily strawl with Nala when im up here.
Fijne dag topper
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- Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day
Fritter and waste the hours in an offhand way.
Kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town
Waiting for someone or something to show you the way.
Tired of lying in the sunshine staying home to watch the rain.
You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today.
And then one day you find ten years have got behind you.
No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun.
So you run and you run to catch up with the sun but it’s sinking
Racing around to come up behind you again.
The sun is the same in a relative way but you’re older,
Shorter of breath and one day closer to death.
Every year is getting shorter never seem to find the time.
Plans that either come to naught or half a page of scribbled lines
Hanging on in quiet desperation is the English way
The time is gone, the song is over,
Thought I’d something more to say.
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Thank you Conor 
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@Girlinterrupted good to hear you feeling better, looks like some positive events will be happening as well apartment sounds fab. Good luck with appointment. I love the gym (after) it makes me feel so much better. Have a good day
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Hello checking in on day 32.
Another observation, when I was drinking I never slept well and felt “yack” all day but could get up to an alarm. But since I not drinking, having great sleeps, but despite two alarms - dont hear them!! sleeping longer each morning, hope this is an adjustment period, as having no job at the moment its not causing me issues, but when I am back in work may need a siren style alarm to get me up.
Some great days @Joy @Just_Laura @C_8 @SoberWalker @bikethief @Fargesia_murielae @ifs @Fargesia_murielae @Mno. Apologies if I missed anyone, lots of posts and limited on tags.
@GVLNative good luck on your challenge sounds brutal, and enjoy day 32 with me
@Alfa07 hope you feeling better
To all have a great day with strength Better get back to the job boards !
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Day 163. Still have the “meh” feeling about life right now. I’m sober. That’s good. But I seem to have lost all motivation for everything else in life. I just go through the motions every day. Doing the bare minimum I need to get through. Always just counting down the time when I can go to bed. I think this is officially the “Wall” phase. I need to watch that Roadmap video again. Off to work I go again today. Really don’t want to. But I need the money 
so I go. Stay strong everyone! Please keep sharing your stories and experiences. They really do help.
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