Hi,
I’m Richard, 39, father of 4 amazing children and partner to superwoman.
Am I an alcoholic, I’d probably say no, but then an alcoholic would say that wouldn’t he! I don’t drink every day, I don’t need to drink but I do have a drink problem. I have an unhealthy relationship with alcohol. It nearly cost me everything because I used it at inappropriate times and consumed so much sometimes I literally couldn’t recall anything that I’d done, including picking up my children in the car!
I suffer with poor mental health, depression, bi-polar and I have regular and deep suicidal thoughts sometimes. Surprisingly the alcohol didn’t help me with these either, yet at the time I was certain it was. Oh and to top off all that I have Asperger syndrome too so I don’t socialise or have many (6) friends (including my partner and 4 children).
All these combined in the last year caused me to stray from my partner of 20+ years, caused me to struggle at work and caused my life to spiral and nearly cost me my life. I said I’m the partner of superwoman, well it’s true, she stuck by my indiscretions supported me when nobody else did and despite all I had done to her she was still my rock! She has supported me and given me food for thought, empowered me to take control of my spiralling life and be the best version of me possible. I started back at the gym, lost lots of weight and started to feel good about myself again, without drink.
So why am I here, we’ll my battle continues, every minute, every hour, every day. The small decisions like not going to the corner shop on the school run etc are all battles.
Sadly I’m human and can’t win them all, so superwoman convinced me to sign up to this after I slipped.
I hope to use this as a way of reinforcing my commitment to myself and to her that alcohol will not rule my life, however I also want to help and support anyone else fighting these battles. On our own we may be weak, together we can beat anything!