Welcome. Try going 30 days and see if you like it. checkin here. Some people post to the same thread to track their own progress or theres the daily checkin thread here where alot of ppl hang out.
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Your words make me lean towards an addiction. But the glory of it all is you dont have to label it. You can call yourself sober-curious if that gets you started. The label doesnt matter. We are all here on journies to improve and you are more than welcome to join in 