Day 1. I’m simply done being my own worst enemy. 
And hurting. Hurting ALL the time - physically, emotionally, spiritually.
The people around me deserve better. I deserve better. From me
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Welcome Jen. The pain and hurting has brought you to a wonderful community of caring people. Stick around!!! Things will get much better.
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Welcome. Congratulations for starting your sober journey with us.
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Hi Jen and welcome to Talking Sober. It sounds like you’re done with the BS of addiction - good! It’s a chance to make some changes and learn to live different. It is possible.
I find learning very helpful, and I’ve also joined groups. There’s a list of books and podcasts and groups here:
Don’t give up. It is possible if you take it one day at a time, stay humble and open-minded, and seek advice from people who have made progress in their recovery.
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I hope you check out some 12 step meetings and enjoy a long-term happy, joyous, and free recovery.
Have fun and be well 
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Welcome Jen.
Congratulations on day 1
ODAAT.
Practicing gratitude is a huge important tool in my everyday recovery.
And it’s the best thread in the house.
Have a good read around lots of great info around here. And good people that know what you’re going through.
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Welcome Jen
The first 10 days seemed to be the hardest for me so hang on tight for those. What has helped me the most in my recovery is quieting to voices in my head. The sick ones, the ones that tell me I’m not good enough, or I cant do things. I have found a safe place inside me through meditation. Its taken me years to be able to sit in silence, at first guided meditations and mindfulness exercises were more fitting. There is a wonderful app called Insight timer that has hundreds of free meditations on it. We also have a meditation thread where we have shared some of our favorites.
Meditation for Serenity 2021-2025! (tips, tricks & discussion/ 4 years running woot!)
I hope you stick around, there is so much to learn from reading the experiences of other addicts trying to find their way.
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This really inspired me thank you for sharing your light. I’m working on 7 years and still have been struggling with the diseased thinking. Right now I’m trying to be present and in the moment. Any other revelations you can share about those thoughts? Where do you think they come from?
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Hey Jen, welcome! How are you doing today?
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