Hi @ddd
Welcome to TS. Glad you’re here friend. You’re not pathetic at all. We’re all doing the same thing and you should be proud of yourself for recovering from your addiction. Relapses have happened to all of us. They teach us things. The important thing is that right now you’re trying again. The past doesn’t matter. One day at a time, you’ve got this.
This is a very helpful post which I highly recommend:
You can check out this thread to check in daily. It’s where we talk about our sober day, everyday. It’s my favorite thread:
And this one is very helpful as well:
You can also explore all the different threads. There are so many for different interests. Gardening, working out, crocheting, art of all kinds, discussing books, movies.
You’ll find that the community is very supportive. I hope you’ll find this helpful.