Everyone has already said it but I need to too. Great post. 
Bookmarked and grateful to you, for you. 
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I stopped cold turkey no programs, no sponsor, no meds, and DEFINITELY NO PROFESIONAL and I’ll be 6 mts cocaine free in 4 days. I have to disagree with you. You have to WANT, to WANT. No one can help you if you don’t want to help yourself.
100% this was my experience 19 years, 5 months and 11 days ago. I used the same plan as you, stepping into what made me uncomfortable and keeping things simple, taking and using suggestions that I had discarded in the past.
Hope is not a strategy, but it is a motivation. There is hope that following a plan like yours will get you to where you want to be, sober, joyous and free.
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Thanks for reaching out and major congratulations on your sobriety time that’s truly amazing. Long-term sobriety Is possible as long as I get out of the way. And stay willing And desperate. For me and I’m sure a lot of people I had to try every single other option and become broken to truly want to change. I know that life is going to happen and tragic things I will experience but there’s nothing I have to drink or drug over. To be honest looking back I’m not sure if drugs or alcohol ever did what I thought they doing for me. I think that lifestyle has always created problems and got in the way. I think for the longest time I thought that drinking and drugging was my only option and the only way I could go about life. I’m realizing that my life Can play out in a completely different way. I know it’s going to take time and it’s not going to be easy. But there’s no other way
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Reading it again gave me goosebumps, reminds me of the fact that I need to stay vigilant and the steps are a continuous effort. A book I just finished ended with:
“*so tell me, is it worth to pain to get to live twice in one life? Are you glad you’ve chosen the path of awareness? *”
In short the book was about seeing and feeling family relationships as they are.
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My sobriety is built on brutal honesty. I spun so many webs of lies i couldnt keep up. So i told my family that the day i start lying again is the day i more than likely relapsed. I also think about my youngest son i gave up for adoption and getting updates and pics of him. I dont want him to decide he wants to know me one day and stillbe in the same place in life as i was when i had him
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Hello. I’m Tara, at 1:30am I’ll be 24 hrs clean from meth. I’m a wreck. My emotions are everywhere. I’m so tired. I’m lonely. Lost. Feel like a failure. Please help
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Hello Tara, welcome to the community. Congrats on 24 hours clean, that is great! Please stick around amd share your journey with us. 
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Welcome Tara.
Have a good read around here. There’s lots of great topics about all kinds of addictions.
That first 24 hours got to be a bitch. Spend some time reading here.
Here are two good threads to start:
I like to start my day off on the Gratitude thread. C’mon over and check us out.
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Thanks for the kind words. I’m not sure I know how to use this site or app fully yet but I’m trying my best. Thanks for the support
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Thanks for reaching out to me. I’m not sure how to use the site fully yet but I’m glad I found it
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Welcome and Congrats on your one day.
10.5 months since I relapsed. Before that I had 4 years of sobriety. However, a lot of the time both times was by luck, not hard work.
As proven by losing my 4 years, luck runs out. I was reminded by a loved one of this yesterday. It sunk in.
Another thing we spoke about is how addiction desires to end the addict. That seems to be its ultimate goal. So I see it have a choice: stay committed or allow the addiction to eventually end me and make my life miserable along the way.
I’d prefer to take my recovery seriously and stay committed. This same loves one sent this App to me, and I’ve been scanning through it since I received it. I can see how ST can be a useful tool for addicts. I nearly always have my phone on me or close by. That makes using this app very convenient.
So, my plan:
I have to get back to step work. That’s the core and the foundation for me and my sobriety.
Meditation - my meditation practice over the past 9 years has proven to be a lifesaver for me, and is probably a big reason I’ve been able to maintain any length of sobriety without working the steps.
Checking in- using this app to check in on my sobriety and try to give back regularly.
Daily meditations book- read the daily recovery meditation in a book I’ve had for years.
Time management - schedule time for working on my recovery daily. I’ve found that if I don’t literally set time aside, by putting it in my calendar or on a “to do” list then I just won’t ever get around to it.
I also need to go back and look at and work on my character defects.
My addiction has nearly finished me more than once, but I know I’m worth putting in the effort to actively maintain my sobriety.
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Great Share… It is said “It works if you work it”…
My sponsor says that I was so ready for a different life style. Yep it sunk in too.
Congratulations on your sober time…
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Very good topic since am just back from a big relapse
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Great Refresher…I needed to read!
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Just want to say thank you for writing this. It was the first post I read when I came to Talking Sober around day 21. I’ve re-read it probably 50 times, maybe more. Especially during those first 90 days. It contains so much wisdom and was key to my success. I’m 6 months sober and going strong.
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Thank you. I just found out my husband started sleeping with prostitutes because I was drinking. I knew he didn’t like it but I had reduced drinking and not drinking on weekdays. I feel so hurt. I have always supported him even when he was a drunk.