I apologize in advance for any typos. I’m going on a couple days sober from meth and I’ve got clean several times on my own without having to go to jail although I went to prison twice over meth. But it just seems this time there’s like no support. The NA meetings here are not what they used to be if I can put it kindly and also just some other stuff involved that had nothing to do with recovery and the people that runs these meetings which created turmoil. I haven’t screwed a bunch of people over or nothing like that it’s just everybody’s got their own lives that aren’t on meth and everyone else is on it it seems. The last time and most successful time that I quit was when I thought my ex was quitting with me and we had good jobs and just a lot to fall back on I guess and when I found out she never quit and was using behind my back I still didn’t relapse for a long time until I got drunk one day. Luckily I’m not drinking now and this last time of using I didn’t go down the road using intravenously. So I’ve got that going for me but I mean it’s just the hope is gone. I seem to be the only one who wants to quit and wants to get stoked about quitting. I can’t blame anyone else I guess for not being there to root me on but you know that’s why I’m resorting to these methods. The online na platforms are kind of hard to navigate and then this other affect app is wanting my health insurance which I don’t even know if I still have and things are just kind of overwhelming on top of you know I’m way behind on rent and it’s extremely cold where I live at the moment colder than usual and pretty much impossible to go to the job I’m not even sure I still have. Any of my friends that supposedly are clean won’t even respond to me, not like I did anything but help them and they always say virtuous stuff like I can count on them but whatever and man I just really need some kind of support. Even if just a keep your head up from some strangers would be more then what I’ve had so far. I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired and don’t want to be homeless don’t want to go back to jail don’t want to be miserable Seems like im having to just fight for dear life just to find support or help or anything online even. Thank you for reading
Welcome o TS @Spadecoffin 
Sounds that you have a rough time, sending hugs and kind vibes your way 
Have a good read around here, there are tons of information and sharing.
Make a plan for staying sober and recovery. Lotsa helpful stuff here
Accountability is essential as you stated already. There are several threads where you can check in daily, multiple times if you want, getting to know people here, sharing, reading, getting support. You are not alone!
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Hey @Spadecoffin
Welcome to the forum. It’s great to have you here.
Did you ever hear the saying before that you should be your own biggest cheerleader? Well, you should. Be stoked for yourself, cheer for yourself. You deserve to be clean and sober.
You will also find plenty of people here who will celebrate your sobriety with you and encourage you along the way.
If the meeting you went to isn’t working out for you maybe try another one. Or try an online one.
I’m sorry that you are struggling. There is a great community here. Share as much as you like with us.
From my experience you’re going to do much better by going to recovery meetings. So what if they suck? What sucks more?
Meetings will make it easier and im sure there are other meetings you can attend make the effort and im sure youl find one wish you well
Welcome to a great sober community. How are you doing?