Welcome o TS @Spadecoffin 
Sounds that you have a rough time, sending hugs and kind vibes your way 
Have a good read around here, there are tons of information and sharing.
Make a plan for staying sober and recovery. Lotsa helpful stuff here
Accountability is essential as you stated already. There are several threads where you can check in daily, multiple times if you want, getting to know people here, sharing, reading, getting support. You are not alone!
You can search for keywords & tags like meth or metamphetamine.
There are quit lit sharings, N/A discussions, ressources for recovery, mental health …
For distraction you find everything here, hobby threads, music recommendation, memes, pets, sports …
Take it one day at a time and do what you CAN do today. Work on what you CAN change, improve, solve, show up, take responsibility … and leave the rest. Put your sober head on the pillow tonight. Repeat tomorrow.
NEVER CRAVE ALONE. Come here. Post. Vent. Let it out. Journaling can be very supportive.
See you here on your personal homethread 
Chin up! Share what’s on your plate and keep coming back!