Welcome to the forum, it’s a really safe place to be when you are trying to not drink. To wake up and commit to a sober day, to take action on that commitment and lay a sober head on the pillow at night, that was a challenge for me. Some days it took a lot of strength of will, but most days I found it easier to just surrender to the reality that I needed help and to use the help that was so easily available to me.
If you’re wondering maybe why you posted, check out this thread about the journey of recovery. Blessings on your house 
as you begin your journey.