Thought I’d grab the opportunity to be first here. Today I went to church which I haven’t done for a while in person. 5 seconds later and I can never seem to remember what the sermon was but it was good. At 12:30 I went to my women’s meeting in the park and we had a baby shower after. Now I am trying to get in a walk pad workout but am not motivated. I know I need to exercise but it’s hard for me to get started. Wish I lived in a more walkable part of town but that isn’t the case. Well, have a good 24 hours everyone, I hope sober.
And I was going to nab that 1st to post on this thread for some reason (cuz I never check in!). Must have caught your vibe and alas, I will always be behind you (and grateful to follow in your footsteps!).
To stay on topic…day 3377…had a peaceful day home alone, which happens maybe 3 days a year, so I cherish. Enjoyed the AM on the back porch listening to birds, spent a little time in the garden, did some strength training, followed by yin yoga and then a bike ride. All things I have missed past several months and am hopeful to build back into my life.
Was going to catch some sun this afternoon as well, but it rained (a needed blessing), so I took a tubby and read. Now hanging with my cat watching Vampire Lestat. Pretty awesome day.
Sunday evening. Just finished cooking and eating dinner, and now doing some cuddles with my 2 1/2 week old while my wife does dishes with my daughter. Crazy busy weekend. This is the first time I’ve had a few minutes to pull my phone out, and clear my head a little bit.
My mom is in town for the week to meet her granddaughter. it’s been crazy busy. Gotta go. I’ll edit this later. Peace.
Edit 1 - a few minutes later. Yeah, I just had one of those running around days, constantly managing two conversations and hustling - it was extremely taxing on my nervous system, with no relief. I mentioned that to my wife, and she’s gonna let me just chill on the back deck with my 2 1/half year-old daughter and cuddle for a little bit to chill out and reset. Perfect; this is exactly what I needed. Repeated thought, but I’m glad I’m not looking for a beer right now, and I’ll be heading to bed, sober and up frequently overnight for the diaper changes and cuddles, with no regrets tomorrow morning.
Checking in day 332. Venus into Leo this morning, and a Gemini new moon at 7:54 pm here (Pacific Standard Time). Going to commemorate the moon somehow, sometimes it’s just brushing and flossing my teeth just before. A fresh start. Bc we can start our day, our very life path, over at any time. Without relapsing! Never crave alone. It’s a trap. Thanks due to two wise TS men… Congratulations, @Tragicfarinelli on 900 days! Yep, comma club is close! It’s a pleasure being on this adventure with you.
I feel ok today. Only been at this dating app thing for a week. Made some strides in just talking to strangers.
Played scrabble with my kiddo after a bunch of chores. I was kinda loafy all day but managed to take the dog for a long walk after dinner. Feeling amazing that I can walk out my front door and see less than 6 people on a hike to one of the most mysterious waterfalls there is. I can follow that river to the big lake.
My super humble “hobby farm” might not be much but it’s warm, it has all the amenities, surrounded by acres of forests and close to an excellent state park. One day I will polish it into something I am proud of. For now, I can be proud of what it’s becoming. I’m a work in progress too. I can take note of what I’ve done instead of focus on what I lack.
Had a strange night, with lots of waking up and some very eventful dreams. I didn’t want to get out of bed just now but didn’t want to stay in either. So here I am, a bit grumpy, having my coffee.
Just two days of work out of the coming two weeks which is a thought that cheers me up a bit. Meeting my old gf who flew in for a couple of days for lunch today which is nice. Better weather on the way. Planned a nice bike ride for tomorrow. Kitty flying in Saturday night. I’m sober and clean.
Feeling a bit better already. I’m going to have as good a day as I possibly can and hope you will all too. Much love from the park yesterday.
Today I am forcing myself into a routine similar like I have at home, even though my body and brain are protesting a bit. This morning my mom and me are making shorts. I have not worn a short since I was a teenager. My legs are so pale they could blind someone when they reflect the sun. But I am getting more comfortable with my body so this summer it’s time for some bare legs!
This week the weather is supposed to become nice so I am looking forward to that. A bit of sunshine does the mind and body good.
There have been some cravings the last few days but all where manageble. But it is annoying that mom keeps her tea and alcohol in the same cabinet. Well, I see this as a opportunity to train the sober muscles!
Good day to everyone I’ve decided to change my approach towards staying sober 1D+ and one of the actions is that I will journal and post here more often. I did drink too much yesterday, had an argument with my girlfriend which brought additional complexities into our relationship.
Among other things I did already this morning I do plan to read some parts of Carr’s book Quit drinking, that also helped me in past. Do some walking, praying and mindfulness meditation.
I just don’t want to live this way anymore My vision of myself is: healthy, sporty man, productive at work as well as outside, with love of my life if everything goes well and if I were to enjoy only a few moments of happiness per week, I’d be totally fine with that
Day 536
Haven’t checked in here for a bit. Today is a day off from work with lots to do around the house. I will pace myself and just do what I can. Work has been especially tough these past 2 weeks as well as some things going on here at home. I’d be a big fat liar if I said I wasn’t feeling a bit overwhelmed and even a bit defeated by it all. Just gotta keep getting up and choosing to face all that life throws my way sober. Everything will be ok or at least I can’t make it worse if I just stay sober. Hope you all have a good day . Stay safe and sober out there.
Today I went to church which I haven’t done for a while in person. 5 seconds later and I can never seem to remember what the sermon was but it was good. At 12:30 I went to my women’s meeting in the park and we had a baby shower after. Now I am trying to get in a walk pad workout but am not motivated. I know I need to exercise but it’s hard for me to get started. Wish I lived in a more walkable part of town but that isn’t the case. Well, have a good 24 hours everyone, I hope sober.
Congratulations, 
hopefully.
I’ve decided to change my approach towards staying sober 1D+ and one of the actions is that I will journal and post here more often. I did drink too much yesterday, had an argument with my girlfriend which brought additional complexities into our relationship.
My vision of myself is: healthy, sporty man, productive at work as well as outside, with love of my life if everything goes well and if I were to enjoy only a few moments of happiness per week, I’d be totally fine with that 
Gonna relax now before heading off to my CA meeting tonight.