I think my interview went well. I really liked them. I don’t meet all the qualifications but hopefully I make up for that with other attributes. It would be a meaningful increase in pay.
Other than that I’m just always tired. No word yet about getting insurance to cover my adhd med. I need to find a way to be more productive at work. I really struggle with the boring repetitive stuff. I’ll probably try to do another hour after dinner.
Thank you so much for your sweet words. I feel like ive found a place of belonging and you all are my friends. We are all here trying to get better and help each other where possible.
Thanks again
@Cloudy welcome congrats on day 1 @JennyH have a lovely holiday
1092 days no alcohol.
557 days no cocaine.
72 days no vape.
Woke up really late, managed to complete my morning routine, just in time to attend the online Mindfulness course I was booked on to, it was very relaxing.
Spent the rest of the afternoon reading, I will likely finish the book I’m reading tomorrow, looking forward to starting a new one.
My leg is even worse today, so I still can’t do my walks and I’m suffering for it mentally. The pain is making me want to get crisps (chips) so I can watch TV to distract myself from it. I’m trying to resist because I’ve gained 17lbs recently, and I’ve already had an jce-cream and can of coca-cola from the ice cream van today.
I’ve been resting my calf on a hot water bottle while I’ve been reading, will use an ice block next. Really need it to heal so I can get back out walking ASAP.
Hey what’s up everyone, its me i accidentally logged out of my other account. So i had to make a new one, but I’m typing this with my knew keyboard so thats cool. Had a good day, got two of my college books. Had dinner at the house with the guys and now I’m just relaxing. Going to figure out how to use everything on my keyboard. But yeah much love everyone hope you all had amazing days.
Feeling very sad and defeated today. It’s been a year since I’ve seen my grandkids. I had to block my daughter in law got my own mental well-being. I’m locked her yesterday when she started the drama. I had to cut my son off two months ago when he continued to allow his wife to control everything and hold my grandchildren hostage.
It’s been quiet and I’ve not had to deal with her drama and toxicity. This whole scenario circles around my parents ashes. My son asked to keep them. No one had an issue with that. However, they have stored my parents in a cabinet in the garage where they keep there dog food. It’s so disrespectful! My son has allowed it.
Apparently my DIL wants them gone but wants to control how they are delivered, when they are delivered. I want nothing to do with that horrible woman. She’s pure evil. She included family members my brother and I don’t speak to and o know it was simply to cause mayhem. If I don’t comply with her demands she’ll hold my parents ashes hostage. I’m just heartbroken.
Tonight will be day 424 of no self harm, I can’t believe how close I am to 1.5 years!! I recently had a dream where I self harmed (not sure why I had it I was feeling fine) and when I woke up that feeling I had made me realize how much I never want to self harm again and I seriously can’t see myself doing it in the future, but I know there will always be a risk of it. so I’m not going to say i will NEVER do it again but it’s hard to imagine it
@Alisa thank you for all the great advice and encouragement I will think about having a sonogram
doing okay just feeling like hell physically but that’s only because I got some tattoos which makes me feel pretty shit for a few days. I can’t believe I forgot to post them! I just got them Saturday
Having hope is great! Love your tattoos.
You are coming into your own, maturing, and I wish you in your life great happiness … very little to no pain … and contentment with yourself. That’s awesome that you see self harm as a part of your past. You are growing and healing in so many ways. Big big hugs and lots of love. There’s a tattoo thread if you want to post your tattoo over there also. It’s very nice.
I am so sorry for all that you going through. I am grateful a that you have been strong enough to set up boundaries and stick to them. Its horrifying that your grandkids are being used as hostages in this. Grateful that you are maintaining your sobriety.
Worse yet is the disrespect to your parents. I am well aware of the deceitful manipulative ways toxic people can behave. I’ve never had any luck getting my point through to such people (they are impossible to reason with) from my experience.
I just want to give you a huge hug Dana - so sorry that you heartbroken and having to deal with this drama. This is an insane situation - we are here if you need a shoulder to cry on or just vent. Wish i could offer more in support.
My heart is with you. I am dealing with family things as well and it is very painful.
I am so sorry this has anything to do with a loved ones ashes, and I can imagine how your heart aches to see your grandchildren. I hope that you can find some peace with all of this; I am searching for it also.
I’ve been feeling dreadful lately, and then bad things happen.
I am wondering if I am manafesting these bad things, subconsciously, to match this dread I feel.
I know, us humans look for patterns, signs and reason in things to connect two things that should not be connected, sometimes we will things into existence to prove to ourselves we were right. I wonder if that’s what I am doing now, sabotaging myself, to validate this dread.
🩵 there’s no way I’m resetting my takeaways counter, I’m at 325 days and I wanna see that become 365 
Well done for exercising today 
